May 26, 2026

S4 E48 - 'Hit the SPOTLight' with Quinn creator Lux

S4 E48 - 'Hit the SPOTLight' with Quinn creator Lux
Spotify podcast player badge
Apple Podcasts podcast player badge
RSS Feed podcast player badge
Spotify podcast player iconApple Podcasts podcast player iconRSS Feed podcast player icon
Season 4

Welcome to another episode of “Hit the SPOTlight!” We are joined by the incredibly talented Lux, and we discuss, well, everything. We talk about tacos (the food, Clitizens, calm yourselves), using Spanish in audios, listener questions, masculinity, and some really good conversations about growth, friendship, and figuring yourself out.

CW: This episode briefly mentions/discusses Immigration and Customs Enforcement (ICE). Please take care of yourself while listening.

🔥 IN THIS EPISODE

  • We play a hilarious (and informative) taco-themed game
  • Growing up NOT talking about sex and how healing from religious trauma can shape your journey
  • How male friendships and conversations between Lux and his friends have changed since he joined the audio erotica space
  • Lux discusses speaking Spanish in his audios and if he plans to do an all Spanish audio
  • A conversation about the current political climate in the USA and how it relates to one of his audios, Cielo.
  • Incredible listener questions that sparked some thoughtful responses
🔗 Where to Find Lux
Linktree

🎙 WHO’S TALKING
Hosts: Kazza, Jules, Smudge
Guest: Lux

💬 THE BIG TAKEAWAY
Change does not happen overnight, and it definitely does not happen in silence. The more honest conversations we have around sexuality, growth, and connection, the more room there is for people to grow into themselves.


[Taco Time] [Feeling Light] [Cielo] [Bollocks] [Make Sounds] [ Pineapple Does Belong On Pizza] [Radish Debate]


🫶 Thank You to Our Sponsor: What Beti Made
Big love to Beti for creating amazing stickers. Beti also offers custom sticker designs, so you can bring your own ideas to life. And yes, there is an entire QuinnCast Podcast collection.
Website


💌 STAY CLOSE
Follow us so you don’t miss the good stuff:
Website: QuinnCast.com
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/quinncastpodcast/
TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@quinncast

⭐️ IF THIS EPISODE DID SOMETHING FOR YOU
  • Subscribe.
  • Leave a review.
  • Or send it to a friend with zero explanation and a raised eyebrow. 🌶️
WEBVTT

1
00:00:15.720 --> 00:00:23.359
Lux be a VI eight tonight was a bit vagasy

2
00:00:23.519 --> 00:00:25.519
brat pack. I'm a brat really.

3
00:00:26.160 --> 00:00:30.199
Think I think you're thinking of the rat tag. But

4
00:00:31.120 --> 00:00:31.480
for you.

5
00:00:33.920 --> 00:00:34.439
Rat tag.

6
00:00:34.520 --> 00:00:39.439
You know, when I realized who we were speaking to today,

7
00:00:40.119 --> 00:00:42.359
I just had Vegas in my head for some reason,

8
00:00:42.600 --> 00:00:43.359
I have that song.

9
00:00:44.000 --> 00:00:45.719
Why Why would you have that stuck in your head?

10
00:00:45.759 --> 00:00:47.479
I don't know, why would I jews?

11
00:00:48.280 --> 00:00:50.640
Maybe because it sounds a lot like the va we're

12
00:00:50.679 --> 00:00:55.880
talking to today. Because we're talking to Lux today, you're.

13
00:00:55.799 --> 00:00:59.840
Duck Gonna looks Prince, which is like one name looks

14
00:01:00.439 --> 00:01:02.840
just checks slick.

15
00:01:03.000 --> 00:01:05.239
Let's tell our Clitticiens a little bit about Lux, shall

16
00:01:05.319 --> 00:01:08.840
we so. Lux has been a Quinn Audio creator for

17
00:01:08.879 --> 00:01:12.319
over two years. As an anonymous creator, he loves to

18
00:01:12.359 --> 00:01:15.159
think of himself as an international man of mystery.

19
00:01:16.200 --> 00:01:18.879
Known for stirring his coffee with the same fingers he

20
00:01:19.000 --> 00:01:23.519
uses to coax magic from his guitar and other things hint, hint,

21
00:01:24.359 --> 00:01:27.799
and for producing what his listeners generously call growls.

22
00:01:29.239 --> 00:01:32.239
Loux is not afraid to try new things or to

23
00:01:32.319 --> 00:01:37.400
experiment and see what happens. Chaos is his best friend, music,

24
00:01:37.560 --> 00:01:41.319
his confidante, tacos, his favorite.

25
00:01:40.799 --> 00:01:46.000
Meal, Okay, I have to say, and I really hate

26
00:01:46.040 --> 00:01:48.680
playing favorites. This might be the best bio we have

27
00:01:48.719 --> 00:01:50.120
ever got from.

28
00:01:49.879 --> 00:01:50.640
A pretty good bio.

29
00:01:50.680 --> 00:01:54.359
It's so fun and I love it.

30
00:01:54.439 --> 00:01:58.159
This bio is Muibian right.

31
00:01:58.519 --> 00:02:04.120
First off, I'm not ambidient extress, but tacos favorite mail?

32
00:02:04.200 --> 00:02:06.239
Do you know what? I genuinely don't think I've ever

33
00:02:06.280 --> 00:02:08.360
had a taco. If I don't know, I haven't, I've

34
00:02:08.400 --> 00:02:09.080
never had a taco.

35
00:02:09.639 --> 00:02:14.120
I had a taco earlier today in honor of Lux. Yes,

36
00:02:14.240 --> 00:02:16.479
of course, of course you got to prepare. That's for

37
00:02:16.560 --> 00:02:19.759
science as well. You know, we've done a really good

38
00:02:19.840 --> 00:02:21.560
job not making a joke about tacos right now.

39
00:02:21.599 --> 00:02:24.439
Yeah, we are doing it right. We're saving it for Lux.

40
00:02:24.520 --> 00:02:28.800
Yeah, we're just God, the professionalism is just amazing, isn't it.

41
00:02:29.960 --> 00:02:32.599
Should we bring them in and talk talk all things taco.

42
00:02:33.039 --> 00:02:37.240
Come on in, luck, We're welcome.

43
00:02:37.360 --> 00:02:38.520
Looks, how are you?

44
00:02:39.520 --> 00:02:45.319
I am good? You know? It is a fine Tuesday? Correct?

45
00:02:45.879 --> 00:02:47.120
Is I had to look it up?

46
00:02:47.199 --> 00:02:47.400
Look?

47
00:02:47.479 --> 00:02:49.879
Is it.

48
00:02:50.360 --> 00:02:50.639
Time?

49
00:02:51.599 --> 00:02:52.520
Do you do this full time?

50
00:02:52.560 --> 00:02:52.879
Looks?

51
00:02:53.360 --> 00:02:58.080
No? I do not? Okay, Yeah, I'm actually on like

52
00:02:58.319 --> 00:03:02.199
a break. I have a kind of an extended lunch break. Oh,

53
00:03:03.439 --> 00:03:05.800
so I have a full time job that is not this,

54
00:03:07.680 --> 00:03:11.240
and I do this when I make time to do this,

55
00:03:11.400 --> 00:03:15.599
because obviously this is so much more fun and I

56
00:03:15.639 --> 00:03:18.400
absolutely wanted to talk to you, so I said, yeah,

57
00:03:18.479 --> 00:03:22.680
let's let's do this now. But yeah, no, this is

58
00:03:22.680 --> 00:03:24.800
not this. This is not my full time job. I

59
00:03:24.840 --> 00:03:27.960
wish it was. Hopefully we'll get there someday soon.

60
00:03:28.120 --> 00:03:31.240
But yeah, well, we are very happy that you have

61
00:03:31.280 --> 00:03:34.759
taken time out of your lunch to spend your time

62
00:03:34.800 --> 00:03:35.120
with us.

63
00:03:35.319 --> 00:03:36.759
Oh thank you.

64
00:03:36.759 --> 00:03:39.639
You know what's really fun, Lucks is we like to

65
00:03:39.759 --> 00:03:42.599
start off warming up our guests with a little game.

66
00:03:43.599 --> 00:03:45.120
Yes, that's the intimidating part.

67
00:03:47.280 --> 00:03:49.120
This is going to be so up your street. You

68
00:03:49.159 --> 00:03:50.199
have nothing to worry about here.

69
00:03:50.280 --> 00:03:51.599
I wanted to go to hit me with I have

70
00:03:51.680 --> 00:03:52.120
no idea.

71
00:03:52.639 --> 00:03:55.719
Yeah, okay, well here we go. So we'll tell you

72
00:03:55.719 --> 00:03:58.120
about the game what it is, and then we will

73
00:03:58.240 --> 00:04:01.639
ask for your consent because that's important, and then we'll

74
00:04:01.719 --> 00:04:05.120
dive in and you will wow us with your knowledge.

75
00:04:06.000 --> 00:04:06.319
You will.

76
00:04:06.479 --> 00:04:09.879
It's gonna be so happy with yours. What the game is? Okay,

77
00:04:10.159 --> 00:04:22.600
So the game is called Taco about Trivia. Oh god,

78
00:04:24.480 --> 00:04:28.519
So we're going to ask you some trivia questions about tacos. Okay,

79
00:04:29.000 --> 00:04:32.319
I mean they're your favorite food according to your bio.

80
00:04:32.720 --> 00:04:36.199
You know, yes, and it's Taco Tuesday, so yeah, let's

81
00:04:36.240 --> 00:04:37.399
go for it.

82
00:04:37.000 --> 00:04:38.240
What it is.

83
00:04:39.720 --> 00:04:47.199
You realize that? Okay, here we go, see how much

84
00:04:47.240 --> 00:04:48.199
you really love tacos.

85
00:04:48.480 --> 00:04:49.240
I'm still scared.

86
00:04:51.839 --> 00:04:54.120
Wait did we ask you for your consent? Actually?

87
00:04:54.800 --> 00:04:55.160
Did we?

88
00:04:55.680 --> 00:04:56.160
I don't know?

89
00:04:56.319 --> 00:04:57.040
Did you want to play?

90
00:04:58.800 --> 00:05:07.319
Yes? I do. I'm terrified, shaken in my boots.

91
00:05:07.319 --> 00:05:10.879
Okay, so the first question, yes, what are the two

92
00:05:11.079 --> 00:05:13.480
most common taco shell types?

93
00:05:14.600 --> 00:05:22.879
Taco shell types like the corn tortilla taco shell? Mm hmmm, yeah, you're.

94
00:05:22.720 --> 00:05:24.399
Ever getting more specific than you need to.

95
00:05:25.800 --> 00:05:30.480
Well, you know that's it's like there's there's like the

96
00:05:30.600 --> 00:05:33.279
hard taco shell, and there's like there's a soft tortilla,

97
00:05:33.480 --> 00:05:36.040
like what I call the original taco, which is like

98
00:05:36.120 --> 00:05:38.720
the the like the mini tortillas when you come like two,

99
00:05:38.959 --> 00:05:40.639
you know, like you have two of them so that

100
00:05:40.680 --> 00:05:43.160
if you spill out of the first one, you can

101
00:05:43.240 --> 00:05:46.120
use the second tortilla to eat whatever fell out of

102
00:05:46.120 --> 00:05:48.360
the first one, so you don't miss out on all

103
00:05:48.399 --> 00:05:49.040
that goodness.

104
00:05:51.120 --> 00:05:54.600
Scale Yes, you got it.

105
00:05:55.879 --> 00:05:57.439
Hard and soft is all we were looking for, and

106
00:05:57.519 --> 00:06:01.439
you just you can use your knowledge. That sounds like.

107
00:06:04.160 --> 00:06:06.720
And I'm looking at the next answer as well, and

108
00:06:07.000 --> 00:06:08.759
once again, yeah, calm down.

109
00:06:08.639 --> 00:06:11.040
That road, all right.

110
00:06:11.519 --> 00:06:15.319
Next one, what meat is used in a carnitas taco?

111
00:06:16.000 --> 00:06:22.720
That's I told you these were going to be right

112
00:06:22.800 --> 00:06:24.160
too easy for tack Lover.

113
00:06:25.600 --> 00:06:27.639
I don't like to ailiate our guests like you do

114
00:06:27.720 --> 00:06:30.959
with I like to set stuff for success.

115
00:06:31.639 --> 00:06:33.879
The whole time, I was like, I'm wondering what they're

116
00:06:33.920 --> 00:06:36.360
going to do for this game thing because I'm listening

117
00:06:36.399 --> 00:06:39.240
to your other episodes and I'm like, oh no, like.

118
00:06:39.319 --> 00:06:43.480
Because nine times out of ten I do the game.

119
00:06:45.680 --> 00:06:49.000
I kind of have a brain that doesn't do this

120
00:06:49.079 --> 00:06:49.680
type of game.

121
00:06:51.160 --> 00:06:55.439
So I did this game, yes, because I don't like

122
00:06:55.519 --> 00:06:56.399
humuli guests.

123
00:06:56.560 --> 00:07:01.000
So this is this is where any type of pronunciation

124
00:07:01.160 --> 00:07:04.920
goes out the window. Didn't learn Spanish or anything, So

125
00:07:05.000 --> 00:07:11.079
here we go. What does our pasta postal mean in English?

126
00:07:11.160 --> 00:07:14.759
What does our pastor mean in English?

127
00:07:16.199 --> 00:07:25.759
Shepherd style? Yeah, I'm like, it's not pastor.

128
00:07:26.560 --> 00:07:28.439
How do you pronounce it? Then it's pasta?

129
00:07:30.360 --> 00:07:31.759
Alright, I mean that's what you said.

130
00:07:32.800 --> 00:07:35.439
I think if we rewound this. But that's exactly what

131
00:07:35.480 --> 00:07:37.240
I said.

132
00:07:38.519 --> 00:07:40.279
That's all right right.

133
00:07:41.120 --> 00:07:46.759
What fruit is traditionally served on l pastor tacos?

134
00:07:47.160 --> 00:07:50.360
Oh? Man, See this is where you got me because

135
00:07:50.360 --> 00:07:54.279
I don't normally I don't normally get them. I don't know.

136
00:07:55.279 --> 00:07:56.519
Yeah, we've got a hint.

137
00:07:57.120 --> 00:07:57.680
You need a hint.

138
00:07:57.959 --> 00:08:02.199
Okay sometimes. Actually I'm gonna say this tastes delicious on pizza.

139
00:08:02.959 --> 00:08:03.560
Pineapple.

140
00:08:06.199 --> 00:08:08.399
See you and pizza. I was signing. If you turn

141
00:08:08.480 --> 00:08:10.560
it upside down, you can swing on you can swing

142
00:08:10.600 --> 00:08:10.879
on it.

143
00:08:11.040 --> 00:08:13.199
See. I love pineapple and pizza, so that's the first

144
00:08:13.199 --> 00:08:14.120
thing I thought of too.

145
00:08:14.199 --> 00:08:14.839
It's my favorite.

146
00:08:14.839 --> 00:08:19.800
So yeah, see, and this divides people like immediately, so immediately.

147
00:08:20.120 --> 00:08:23.079
Yeah, I'm already questioning my friendship with jewels.

148
00:08:24.680 --> 00:08:26.480
I have to know because I do love pineapple and

149
00:08:26.519 --> 00:08:28.199
I've never had it on pizza, So, like, what else

150
00:08:28.279 --> 00:08:29.920
is on the pizza that you have it on jewels?

151
00:08:30.279 --> 00:08:32.960
So traditionally people do ham. I'm not a huge ham person,

152
00:08:33.000 --> 00:08:35.840
so I do pineapple because I love sweet and savory together.

153
00:08:36.159 --> 00:08:38.200
So pineapple on like a plain cheese pizza.

154
00:08:38.120 --> 00:08:39.799
With pepperoni in a side of ranch.

155
00:08:40.399 --> 00:08:42.200
I've never done the ranch part, but I'm going to

156
00:08:42.240 --> 00:08:42.759
have to try that.

157
00:08:42.879 --> 00:08:47.879
Yes, little crispy crust, absolute perfection again, all right? Next one,

158
00:08:48.399 --> 00:08:51.519
what type of fish is most commonly used in Baja

159
00:08:51.559 --> 00:08:52.759
style fish tacos?

160
00:08:53.559 --> 00:08:58.279
Oh? I don't actually know, but I love them. I

161
00:08:58.320 --> 00:09:04.360
love them. What is it? Is it? Tilapia is a goldfish?

162
00:09:04.799 --> 00:09:06.159
That's a problem with goldfish.

163
00:09:06.480 --> 00:09:09.879
Three lessons whitefish and if you turn it round the

164
00:09:09.919 --> 00:09:13.000
opposite way, it's another va that end in rapture.

165
00:09:14.279 --> 00:09:27.440
It's really good smudgie. Yeah. The other example could be

166
00:09:27.559 --> 00:09:28.600
mahi mahi as well.

167
00:09:29.519 --> 00:09:31.720
Yes, you didn't know what that was. I thought that

168
00:09:31.759 --> 00:09:32.360
was a cocktail.

169
00:09:33.600 --> 00:09:35.360
That's my type type.

170
00:09:37.240 --> 00:09:41.120
It doesn't taste the same, right, Next one, what's the

171
00:09:41.159 --> 00:09:46.559
difference between a taco dorado dorado and a regular taco?

172
00:09:47.799 --> 00:09:50.080
It's like dorado?

173
00:09:52.159 --> 00:09:52.840
What does that mean?

174
00:09:53.000 --> 00:09:57.360
It's like roasted. It's like it's like, I don't I

175
00:09:57.360 --> 00:09:59.639
don't know how to describe. It's just like a roasted toasted,

176
00:09:59.720 --> 00:10:02.159
like more of a burnt.

177
00:10:02.080 --> 00:10:11.200
Yes, yes, okay, oh okay. What animal does barbacoa traditionally

178
00:10:11.240 --> 00:10:13.320
come from in Central Mexico.

179
00:10:14.840 --> 00:10:19.399
Traditionally come from? Uh? Is it a goat? Lamb?

180
00:10:23.279 --> 00:10:26.519
It's a cow, specifically the head which.

181
00:10:26.320 --> 00:10:29.279
Is it's the one I don't get. It's the one

182
00:10:29.320 --> 00:10:34.480
I avoid. I avoid that one I avoid, I avoid

183
00:10:34.519 --> 00:10:37.120
the tongue one. No, I'm gonna I'm gonna stick to

184
00:10:37.159 --> 00:10:40.600
the stuff that I am. I prefer to, I prefer

185
00:10:40.679 --> 00:10:41.120
to look at.

186
00:10:41.320 --> 00:10:43.840
Well, I didn't know until now that barbaricola was that

187
00:10:44.039 --> 00:10:45.960
because I love Barbicoa.

188
00:10:45.480 --> 00:10:47.399
So probably gonna think about it a little bit.

189
00:10:48.879 --> 00:10:51.720
Totally not that, not that at all though.

190
00:10:52.000 --> 00:10:59.840
Well mine from Chipotless probably probably not probably whatever. All right,

191
00:11:00.759 --> 00:11:04.720
what does trump trompo refer to in taco culture?

192
00:11:05.600 --> 00:11:06.200
I don't know.

193
00:11:07.840 --> 00:11:11.080
I love that you just right away, I'm blanking.

194
00:11:11.320 --> 00:11:14.559
I know that's the best part because I.

195
00:11:14.519 --> 00:11:18.519
Know the word Spanish that the word trompo is is

196
00:11:18.519 --> 00:11:22.279
a top? Is what the top like the spin the top?

197
00:11:22.360 --> 00:11:26.559
You know? Okay, so is it? Is it the thing

198
00:11:26.840 --> 00:11:32.360
that that the meat is like on turning while they're yeah, okay, good, yes.

199
00:11:32.399 --> 00:11:34.440
Yes, I got really excited. You got that.

200
00:11:34.639 --> 00:11:37.840
It is the spinning vertical spit used to cook al

201
00:11:37.919 --> 00:11:38.759
pastor meat.

202
00:11:40.519 --> 00:11:41.960
You can trust yourself more.

203
00:11:41.799 --> 00:11:45.240
Man, I think I do. I came in here super nervous,

204
00:11:45.840 --> 00:11:49.000
to be honest, I'm like the most like shy person

205
00:11:49.279 --> 00:11:50.360
like in real life.

206
00:11:50.519 --> 00:11:54.600
Oh, we're sorry, and to come to the three of us.

207
00:11:54.879 --> 00:11:59.679
But lu but lux is very different. Yes, what's the.

208
00:12:00.639 --> 00:12:07.559
Of the radishes? Often served alongside tacos to eat them

209
00:12:08.759 --> 00:12:12.240
and to be fair, I think you're right, right, he's right.

210
00:12:13.360 --> 00:12:15.399
How can they be that it's a radish?

211
00:12:15.600 --> 00:12:19.159
They're amazing because they're just like.

212
00:12:19.120 --> 00:12:20.440
Not because they don't taste like it.

213
00:12:20.519 --> 00:12:21.519
They don't taste like anything.

214
00:12:21.559 --> 00:12:23.840
So there are pelicleans that they add crunch and freshness

215
00:12:23.840 --> 00:12:24.639
between bites.

216
00:12:25.080 --> 00:12:29.480
They don't taste like anything to type of onion really,

217
00:12:29.720 --> 00:12:32.360
but I think they're really pungent. They're like really strong,

218
00:12:32.399 --> 00:12:33.399
almost kind of spicy.

219
00:12:33.600 --> 00:12:36.440
Here can't we use them as onions? Radishes?

220
00:12:38.320 --> 00:12:39.320
We thinking of something else.

221
00:12:39.440 --> 00:12:41.759
I just pick a radish out of my salad. I'm like,

222
00:12:41.799 --> 00:12:42.279
get out of here.

223
00:12:43.200 --> 00:12:45.240
They don't taste like anything. You know what, it's probably

224
00:12:45.279 --> 00:12:47.000
the ship produce we have in New England.

225
00:12:48.480 --> 00:12:53.919
It probably is for nine day yes, yeah, happening from

226
00:12:53.919 --> 00:12:56.440
like the local market. It probably be super flavorful or something.

227
00:12:57.000 --> 00:12:57.840
It's pungent.

228
00:12:58.279 --> 00:13:01.240
They can be. They can be very strong, like to

229
00:13:01.279 --> 00:13:04.039
the point where it will make you tear up. If

230
00:13:04.080 --> 00:13:06.759
you have a really strong one. You can also bake

231
00:13:06.840 --> 00:13:10.879
them I might bake a radish. It tastes sweet, really,

232
00:13:11.720 --> 00:13:12.519
but I just don't believe.

233
00:13:12.639 --> 00:13:13.759
I can't believe they have flavor.

234
00:13:13.919 --> 00:13:15.799
I know. That's why I was like, they tastes like nothing.

235
00:13:16.039 --> 00:13:18.200
There was just a crunch, no wonder. The question was like,

236
00:13:18.200 --> 00:13:19.440
what's the purpose of them?

237
00:13:19.679 --> 00:13:19.919
Right?

238
00:13:20.399 --> 00:13:20.919
It tastes like.

239
00:13:23.360 --> 00:13:24.039
Palate cleanser.

240
00:13:24.320 --> 00:13:30.440
Well done, it must be good. Yes, you get it survived, Yes.

241
00:13:30.440 --> 00:13:32.919
And now onto the imp of the game. I'm just

242
00:13:32.960 --> 00:13:41.080
all right, you're like, am my internet just went out?

243
00:13:41.120 --> 00:13:41.440
Sorry?

244
00:13:41.440 --> 00:13:41.639
God?

245
00:13:43.840 --> 00:13:43.960
Who?

246
00:13:45.080 --> 00:13:47.759
So what was your life like before audio?

247
00:13:48.200 --> 00:13:54.799
Was like what, I guess my life was what it

248
00:13:54.960 --> 00:13:59.200
is when I'm not doing this. That's just the nature

249
00:13:59.240 --> 00:14:02.720
of the thing. Yeah, no, it's it's it's kind of funny.

250
00:14:02.919 --> 00:14:06.039
I don't think anyone. So I'm an anonymous audio creator

251
00:14:06.159 --> 00:14:10.559
first of all. So people don't know in my normal

252
00:14:10.759 --> 00:14:13.879
everyday life that I do this. I don't tell them.

253
00:14:13.960 --> 00:14:18.440
These are like two separate worlds for me. So yeah,

254
00:14:18.480 --> 00:14:22.240
I guess the main thing that's different is I get

255
00:14:22.320 --> 00:14:26.559
to have fun and get into character and write scripts

256
00:14:26.600 --> 00:14:31.799
and edit things and make sounds and uh, you know,

257
00:14:32.159 --> 00:14:35.679
promote stuff. And I have a you know, small Patreon

258
00:14:35.720 --> 00:14:38.960
community that that is really just cheering me on most

259
00:14:39.000 --> 00:14:43.039
of the time, and and we're just having fun. So

260
00:14:43.240 --> 00:14:46.759
I think that's the big thing. And and the time

261
00:14:46.799 --> 00:14:49.159
that I put into this. Obviously, I have to make

262
00:14:49.240 --> 00:14:53.480
time in my in my life for this particular thing,

263
00:14:53.519 --> 00:14:56.080
and that was very daunting at first because I was

264
00:14:56.159 --> 00:15:00.240
I was just thinking, like how, how my how am

265
00:15:00.279 --> 00:15:02.960
I supposed to do this with everything else I've got

266
00:15:02.960 --> 00:15:07.000
going on. So it's a nice it's a nice creative

267
00:15:07.039 --> 00:15:11.879
outlet for me to get out there and be lucks.

268
00:15:12.799 --> 00:15:14.600
So when do you do it? Like late at night

269
00:15:14.639 --> 00:15:16.279
early mornings.

270
00:15:16.600 --> 00:15:19.759
Yes, most of the time, it happens late at night

271
00:15:21.840 --> 00:15:28.559
probably for me, anywhere anywhere between nine and ten pm

272
00:15:28.720 --> 00:15:33.200
is when I'm recording, and sometimes I will edit up

273
00:15:33.279 --> 00:15:38.720
until maybe midnight when I have to submit audios every week.

274
00:15:40.399 --> 00:15:42.720
And at first it was just it was a lot

275
00:15:42.799 --> 00:15:46.480
because I was learning everything. So I remember staying up

276
00:15:46.519 --> 00:15:48.399
till maybe like two in the morning, three in the

277
00:15:48.399 --> 00:15:52.840
morning editing things in order to submit them because I've

278
00:15:52.840 --> 00:15:55.159
got work the next morning and I don't have time

279
00:15:55.200 --> 00:15:59.080
to do it then, you know, But I've I've learned

280
00:15:59.080 --> 00:16:01.039
a lot. I've learned a lot, I gotten a lot

281
00:16:01.080 --> 00:16:05.879
faster quicker at the whole process. And I've learned, you know,

282
00:16:06.200 --> 00:16:10.440
the times of day, or I've learned to read myself

283
00:16:10.480 --> 00:16:14.639
because I I've what I've realized is I don't I

284
00:16:14.720 --> 00:16:18.159
release things on a consistent basis on Quinn, but I

285
00:16:18.320 --> 00:16:25.320
don't produce them like in that in that I don't

286
00:16:25.320 --> 00:16:27.600
know how I say it, like every week, like I'm

287
00:16:27.639 --> 00:16:30.919
not as creative every single week, And there are there

288
00:16:30.960 --> 00:16:33.440
are weeks when I'm just like, oh, yeah, let's do this.

289
00:16:33.519 --> 00:16:36.360
I could do two three different things and and set

290
00:16:36.399 --> 00:16:39.000
myself up so that I don't show up to the

291
00:16:39.039 --> 00:16:42.360
booth with a script or whatever, and I'm just like,

292
00:16:42.399 --> 00:16:45.200
I'm just not feeling it, Like I'm just exhausted, I'm tired,

293
00:16:45.320 --> 00:16:48.720
and I don't want to do it because I think

294
00:16:48.759 --> 00:16:51.320
that's that's one of the pitfalls where you start getting

295
00:16:51.360 --> 00:16:55.960
into burnout, the burnout phase of things. So I've just

296
00:16:56.120 --> 00:17:00.559
really learned to kind of read myself and take better

297
00:17:00.639 --> 00:17:04.960
care of myself over over the last few years, just

298
00:17:05.000 --> 00:17:09.880
to recognize the rhythms of creativity that I that I

299
00:17:09.960 --> 00:17:13.799
have myself in honor.

300
00:17:14.240 --> 00:17:16.720
Are you are you like naturally a night owl or not?

301
00:17:16.920 --> 00:17:18.680
Like having to record that late was that something you

302
00:17:18.680 --> 00:17:20.039
had to get used to or you just used to

303
00:17:20.079 --> 00:17:20.920
being up late anyway.

304
00:17:20.960 --> 00:17:22.480
Like me, I go to bed at eight o'clock.

305
00:17:22.559 --> 00:17:27.000
So I'm so that is early really.

306
00:17:29.039 --> 00:17:30.480
Social, like my social battery.

307
00:17:30.480 --> 00:17:31.640
Time I go to bed, I tell every I'm going

308
00:17:31.680 --> 00:17:33.480
to bed, and that means like, leave jewels alone.

309
00:17:33.880 --> 00:17:35.319
Now she's done for the day.

310
00:17:35.559 --> 00:17:39.799
Yeah. I uh so I've always been a night owl. Yeah,

311
00:17:40.039 --> 00:17:43.799
that's always just been me. It's it's had to change

312
00:17:43.799 --> 00:17:48.000
over time because obviously I have like a regular daytime

313
00:17:48.079 --> 00:17:49.640
job and I got to be there, you know, in

314
00:17:49.839 --> 00:17:55.200
the morning or whatever. So I can't. I can't be

315
00:17:55.920 --> 00:17:58.839
that a night owl that I know that I am,

316
00:18:00.359 --> 00:18:05.799
so I have to just really manage my energy and time.

317
00:18:06.400 --> 00:18:09.680
But also, you know, I am an introvert, so being

318
00:18:09.839 --> 00:18:13.039
by myself and working on things on my own is

319
00:18:13.279 --> 00:18:16.680
kind of fun and kind of energizing. So I think

320
00:18:16.720 --> 00:18:19.160
that's why it's worked. That's why I can I can

321
00:18:19.200 --> 00:18:21.400
do this late at night because I'm like, I'm tired

322
00:18:21.440 --> 00:18:23.599
of dealing with all the other things that I do,

323
00:18:24.640 --> 00:18:28.519
and I get to just like sit in my little

324
00:18:28.559 --> 00:18:33.680
booth and pretend to be something else for a little bit,

325
00:18:33.799 --> 00:18:35.920
you know. And yeah, and edit that and and be

326
00:18:36.119 --> 00:18:40.880
and be creative and just be with myself in that process.

327
00:18:41.400 --> 00:18:43.839
So how did you find the world.

328
00:18:44.319 --> 00:18:46.680
I used to listen to a lot of audio erotica.

329
00:18:46.960 --> 00:18:52.960
I guess I have a thing for like voices and sound.

330
00:18:53.279 --> 00:18:58.200
And I stumbled across literrotica like many years ago, and

331
00:18:58.240 --> 00:19:02.960
I just started listening and I was just kind of

332
00:19:03.319 --> 00:19:06.279
mesmerized by all of it, like this is all happening

333
00:19:06.519 --> 00:19:11.640
just in my ears. No one knows I'm listening to this,

334
00:19:11.920 --> 00:19:15.680
and it's it was fun at first and just like

335
00:19:15.759 --> 00:19:18.759
out of curiosity, and then I started realizing, oh, this

336
00:19:18.799 --> 00:19:23.519
is kind of interesting because I kind of I'm listening

337
00:19:23.559 --> 00:19:27.000
to people say things that are very sometimes I make

338
00:19:27.039 --> 00:19:30.000
you feel things, and I guess I wasn't expecting that,

339
00:19:30.039 --> 00:19:32.119
you know, at first, I was just curious about listening

340
00:19:32.119 --> 00:19:36.599
to I don't know, this sort of taboo thing that

341
00:19:36.720 --> 00:19:39.000
like I didn't want anyone to know I was listening

342
00:19:39.079 --> 00:19:42.160
to it. But you know, I listened to people do

343
00:19:42.240 --> 00:19:45.519
scripts and they're writing their own stories and getting creative

344
00:19:45.599 --> 00:19:48.839
or even funny, and I was like, oh, wow, this

345
00:19:49.079 --> 00:19:53.240
is really cool. Eventually, you know, there was a bunch

346
00:19:53.279 --> 00:19:56.400
of like male voices too, and I was like I'm

347
00:19:56.559 --> 00:20:01.279
curious to know what they are doing and like how

348
00:20:01.319 --> 00:20:03.480
does this work? And I listened to a few and

349
00:20:03.519 --> 00:20:05.440
it was like, Okay, this is weird. Like I don't

350
00:20:06.119 --> 00:20:09.440
I don't know about this. This is weird. After a while,

351
00:20:09.440 --> 00:20:11.920
I was like, I feel like I could probably do this.

352
00:20:12.599 --> 00:20:16.039
I didn't immediately jump into it. I think a few

353
00:20:16.079 --> 00:20:21.680
years back, like during COVID and everything, I was looking

354
00:20:21.680 --> 00:20:25.880
into possibly doing audio book narration, and so I recorded

355
00:20:25.920 --> 00:20:29.440
a few samples of audio put it out there to

356
00:20:29.440 --> 00:20:32.640
see if I would get anything back. And like the

357
00:20:32.680 --> 00:20:35.680
only offers I got back were for like narrating like

358
00:20:35.759 --> 00:20:41.000
audio erotica stuff, and I was like, that's weird. I

359
00:20:41.000 --> 00:20:43.400
don't think I want to do that, Like I got

360
00:20:43.400 --> 00:20:46.559
to put my name on that, and like that's I

361
00:20:46.599 --> 00:20:48.759
don't know if I want to do that yet. And

362
00:20:48.880 --> 00:20:51.319
I think Quinn had started right around at the same time,

363
00:20:51.599 --> 00:20:55.160
and I had looked at their application stuff because I

364
00:20:55.200 --> 00:20:59.400
was curious, and yeah, it was kind of like over

365
00:20:59.440 --> 00:21:01.039
the years, it's just kind of like this thing that

366
00:21:01.119 --> 00:21:06.480
was snowballing, and eventually at some point I just decided, Hey,

367
00:21:06.480 --> 00:21:10.519
I'm just gonna try this out and make sort of

368
00:21:10.559 --> 00:21:17.240
these spicy audio things and see what happens. And eventually

369
00:21:17.720 --> 00:21:23.960
I landed in TikTok and Instagram back then, and I

370
00:21:24.000 --> 00:21:29.359
connected with a few people, a scriptwriter and Alice and

371
00:21:29.480 --> 00:21:33.680
we did a little collab and then I had another

372
00:21:33.839 --> 00:21:36.480
scriptwriter that wanted to work with me and I did

373
00:21:36.759 --> 00:21:41.079
I just script by them, and it ended up being

374
00:21:41.400 --> 00:21:46.759
the script phil that I used as my audition for Quinn.

375
00:21:47.880 --> 00:21:51.720
So I applied and I submitted that and they liked

376
00:21:51.720 --> 00:21:54.279
it and they were like, come on board, like we

377
00:21:54.319 --> 00:21:59.079
want you. So it happened. It seemed to happen very quickly,

378
00:21:59.160 --> 00:22:01.359
but it was this thing that had been snowballing for

379
00:22:01.519 --> 00:22:03.720
years for me, and so when I finally got there,

380
00:22:04.039 --> 00:22:09.200
I was just kind of shocked that I got in,

381
00:22:10.279 --> 00:22:13.839
and I was scared because I'm like, these guys are

382
00:22:13.880 --> 00:22:16.880
like they're they're big, they're like big names, and like

383
00:22:16.920 --> 00:22:19.400
everyone's talking to them. They're they're they're amazing, and they

384
00:22:19.480 --> 00:22:23.640
put out so much content. And it took me about

385
00:22:23.640 --> 00:22:27.279
a month to do that that script bill because I

386
00:22:27.359 --> 00:22:30.400
had like audio editing stuff that I needed to learn

387
00:22:30.440 --> 00:22:32.799
to do. I had like music I had to find

388
00:22:33.079 --> 00:22:36.960
on Beyonce things. I remember spending like three days trying

389
00:22:37.000 --> 00:22:39.839
to figure out how to make it sound like when

390
00:22:39.880 --> 00:22:42.240
you go inside a room when music's playing outside and

391
00:22:42.279 --> 00:22:44.480
you close the door and it's just a muffled sound.

392
00:22:45.480 --> 00:22:49.279
How the hell do I do this? And I was

393
00:22:49.319 --> 00:22:52.160
working on like free software, and I had like a

394
00:22:52.160 --> 00:22:57.440
beat up MIC, and I managed to pull it off.

395
00:22:58.160 --> 00:23:00.920
But then but then I realized that took me a month.

396
00:23:00.960 --> 00:23:06.680
I don't think audio in a week, are you serious? So,

397
00:23:07.680 --> 00:23:11.720
you know, it was it was a wild ride to

398
00:23:12.480 --> 00:23:16.839
get to that point. I had had a little bit

399
00:23:17.119 --> 00:23:22.240
of experience working at a small radio station when I

400
00:23:22.279 --> 00:23:27.200
was in college, and I, you know, I knew the

401
00:23:27.240 --> 00:23:33.319
basics of like audio reinforcement and recording, but it's it's

402
00:23:33.440 --> 00:23:37.000
it had been a while, and and software is has

403
00:23:37.079 --> 00:23:40.920
changed so much and like everything, so I just had

404
00:23:40.920 --> 00:23:44.039
a lot to learn in a very short amount of time,

405
00:23:44.759 --> 00:23:50.839
and just so much imposter syndrome at the beginning. So yeah,

406
00:23:50.880 --> 00:23:56.279
it was it was. I looking back, I'm like, I

407
00:23:56.319 --> 00:24:00.319
can't believe I'm still here. I can't believe I made

408
00:24:00.359 --> 00:24:06.519
it here. This is all It's been a lot. I'm

409
00:24:06.599 --> 00:24:08.599
I'm I'm excited about it and I love it, But

410
00:24:08.759 --> 00:24:15.759
it was it was really daunting at first, where.

411
00:24:15.599 --> 00:24:17.799
Where did the name come from? When you did Quinn

412
00:24:17.839 --> 00:24:20.079
name you or would you always always looks.

413
00:24:20.279 --> 00:24:25.519
My name was Pollux. I was that that was the

414
00:24:25.559 --> 00:24:30.079
original name. I went with uh v A Pollux or

415
00:24:30.160 --> 00:24:35.200
Pollux dot v A Pollux is one of the stars

416
00:24:35.240 --> 00:24:38.279
in the Gemini constellation. I'm a Gemini and so I

417
00:24:38.440 --> 00:24:41.799
just you know, trying to figure out, like what name

418
00:24:42.119 --> 00:24:44.680
I could use, and I ended up, Okay, I think

419
00:24:44.839 --> 00:24:47.240
I identify with this. This is kind of cool. I could

420
00:24:47.319 --> 00:24:50.319
I could do Pollucks, but it just felt too long.

421
00:24:51.160 --> 00:24:53.400
And also when I picked it, I didn't realize how

422
00:24:53.440 --> 00:24:58.119
far I would get. Yeah, I was like, I don't

423
00:24:58.480 --> 00:25:01.799
like how that sounds. That's because then people started saying

424
00:25:01.839 --> 00:25:05.599
it and I'm like, oh, no, like that doesn't sound

425
00:25:05.799 --> 00:25:07.720
I don't like that. I think we need to shorten it.

426
00:25:07.799 --> 00:25:11.920
Maybe we can do LUs. And and then we went

427
00:25:11.960 --> 00:25:15.000
with Lux, and I just I like the idea of lux,

428
00:25:15.079 --> 00:25:18.880
and you know, it means light and and just I

429
00:25:18.880 --> 00:25:22.440
I just level everything about it. So I stuck with it.

430
00:25:22.480 --> 00:25:26.000
And when I went on to Quinn, I just I

431
00:25:26.039 --> 00:25:28.799
told them, yeah, let's just let's just do Lux. And

432
00:25:29.480 --> 00:25:31.839
that's when it really solidified.

433
00:25:32.240 --> 00:25:33.880
I love the name. I mean it's I think it's

434
00:25:34.559 --> 00:25:36.960
I mean, it's beautiful for those reasons you said, light,

435
00:25:37.000 --> 00:25:39.160
et cetera. And it's also just like when I think

436
00:25:39.200 --> 00:25:43.240
of lux like luxurious, lucky kind of lux it's it's

437
00:25:43.559 --> 00:25:47.599
very rich and soft and warm and cozy, and like

438
00:25:47.640 --> 00:25:51.960
your audio is really fitting that very yeah, very inviting,

439
00:25:52.000 --> 00:25:55.240
and so yeah, yeah, all forms of luck it fits you.

440
00:25:55.440 --> 00:25:58.880
I think that's yeah, I know, psy Pollocks. I mean

441
00:25:58.920 --> 00:25:59.880
it's very British.

442
00:26:02.960 --> 00:26:05.599
Yeah, sorry, yeah, I was just going to ask you

443
00:26:05.640 --> 00:26:08.319
to pronounce it for me, because to me, it would say.

444
00:26:08.400 --> 00:26:09.440
I was like, it's not just going to say it

445
00:26:09.440 --> 00:26:10.480
and it's going to sound like balls.

446
00:26:10.480 --> 00:26:13.799
When in the end it was it was it was

447
00:26:13.799 --> 00:26:16.559
a good idea, and I was like, it's a it's

448
00:26:16.640 --> 00:26:21.599
just short, one syllable, three letters and yeah.

449
00:26:21.759 --> 00:26:24.559
I so how.

450
00:26:24.480 --> 00:26:25.000
Would you say?

451
00:26:25.079 --> 00:26:28.039
Luck that this work kind of allows you to express

452
00:26:28.039 --> 00:26:31.400
yourself in ways that maybe otherwise you hadn't been able to.

453
00:26:32.519 --> 00:26:37.559
I think one of the biggest things about this whole endeavor,

454
00:26:37.559 --> 00:26:40.559
I think for me is just being able to freely

455
00:26:40.640 --> 00:26:46.720
speak about sex. Yeah, just talking about sex. I grew

456
00:26:46.759 --> 00:26:52.279
up in a very sort of traditional religious household, and

457
00:26:52.359 --> 00:26:55.240
so sex was just out of the question. It was

458
00:26:55.920 --> 00:26:57.960
the thing you didn't do until you got married, and

459
00:26:59.720 --> 00:27:06.359
it it I don't think I realized how it affected

460
00:27:06.400 --> 00:27:12.759
me as a as an individual, and the negative connotations

461
00:27:12.799 --> 00:27:16.000
surrounding sex or even talking about sex, and how that

462
00:27:16.200 --> 00:27:23.400
felt repressed for me. So I would have never believed

463
00:27:23.599 --> 00:27:26.279
anyone if they told me that I would be doing this,

464
00:27:27.599 --> 00:27:29.920
Like I would be like, you're out of your mind,

465
00:27:30.000 --> 00:27:32.559
Like I don't know what you're like, what are you saying?

466
00:27:33.720 --> 00:27:39.559
Because it's just been so it's so different, and it's

467
00:27:39.640 --> 00:27:43.240
opened me up and it's made me reflect on things

468
00:27:44.039 --> 00:27:47.839
in my own life and I've been able to sort

469
00:27:47.880 --> 00:27:52.799
of make peace with things like religious trauma or things

470
00:27:52.799 --> 00:27:56.400
that happened in my past that shouldn't have happened, and

471
00:27:58.319 --> 00:28:01.680
just I don't know, I feel like I've discovered this

472
00:28:02.079 --> 00:28:05.400
whole other side of being a human being. Yeah, and

473
00:28:06.039 --> 00:28:09.599
it's it's been incredible and it's been I'm really grateful

474
00:28:09.640 --> 00:28:14.160
for the experience. My partner I and I, Lady Lux

475
00:28:14.200 --> 00:28:18.200
and I, we talk a lot about, you know, things,

476
00:28:18.240 --> 00:28:21.799
and she'll she'll bring up things like, yeah, like you

477
00:28:21.880 --> 00:28:25.440
should never be able to like freely talk about some

478
00:28:25.519 --> 00:28:28.720
of the things we now talk about just and it's

479
00:28:28.960 --> 00:28:32.519
and it's normal, and we've had sort of this, We've

480
00:28:32.519 --> 00:28:35.839
gone into this habit of just talking about sex in

481
00:28:35.880 --> 00:28:40.079
a way that is very just like eye opening and

482
00:28:40.079 --> 00:28:43.519
and free, and I just I just feel so much

483
00:28:43.640 --> 00:28:48.240
lighter about so many things and accepting, you know, accepting myself,

484
00:28:48.359 --> 00:28:53.000
accepting where I'm at. And I didn't expect so much

485
00:28:53.079 --> 00:28:54.519
healing to come from this.

486
00:28:55.160 --> 00:28:58.279
Yeah, none of us did us did, Yes.

487
00:28:58.240 --> 00:29:03.079
So I'm just like, what is like what? So, Yeah,

488
00:29:03.079 --> 00:29:06.160
it's it's it's definitely changed me in in in a

489
00:29:06.200 --> 00:29:09.279
lot of ways, and it continues to be something that

490
00:29:09.400 --> 00:29:12.359
is transformative.

491
00:29:12.759 --> 00:29:15.720
Mm hmmm, Yeah, I think that's the perfect word for there.

492
00:29:15.920 --> 00:29:19.720
It is transformative. And you don't realize how heavy the

493
00:29:19.759 --> 00:29:22.359
burden was that you were carrying until it was lifted,

494
00:29:22.480 --> 00:29:24.519
you know, like the religious trauma and the and the

495
00:29:24.759 --> 00:29:26.920
Yeah that heavy.

496
00:29:27.319 --> 00:29:29.200
Yeah, it's like it's like I didn't know it was

497
00:29:29.319 --> 00:29:31.799
I was in it. Like it's like I don't know,

498
00:29:31.839 --> 00:29:35.359
it's like weird to describe. It's like like this is

499
00:29:35.400 --> 00:29:36.880
like you're in a cloud and you don't know you're

500
00:29:36.920 --> 00:29:38.279
in a cloud and it clears up and you can

501
00:29:38.319 --> 00:29:40.200
finally see and you're like, wait, I was in that

502
00:29:40.319 --> 00:29:45.440
thing for so long? Yes, and yeah, so yes.

503
00:29:45.960 --> 00:29:47.519
Yeah, we totally get it.

504
00:29:47.759 --> 00:29:49.079
Yeah, we've all we've all been there.

505
00:29:49.079 --> 00:29:51.079
And when you start, you know, seeing that you're like this,

506
00:29:51.519 --> 00:29:53.640
I'm dealing with like learned shame, and then all of

507
00:29:53.680 --> 00:29:56.640
a sudden you aren't feeling that anymore, and it just.

508
00:29:56.559 --> 00:29:58.880
Like you said, later is such a perfect word for it.

509
00:29:58.880 --> 00:30:04.000
There's shame and the guilt and the yeah it's brutal. Yeah.

510
00:30:04.440 --> 00:30:04.680
Yeah.

511
00:30:05.079 --> 00:30:09.759
Now you're in communities that are predominantly women. What's the

512
00:30:09.759 --> 00:30:12.960
difference between how you were traditionally brought up in regards

513
00:30:13.000 --> 00:30:15.240
to a man's role and who you are as a man,

514
00:30:15.519 --> 00:30:18.240
to how you feel now after being surrounded.

515
00:30:18.160 --> 00:30:24.440
I grew up in a very macho, like, very very

516
00:30:25.240 --> 00:30:29.680
rigid gender norms and just this idea that as a

517
00:30:29.720 --> 00:30:34.200
man you do not express emotion, especially not like boys

518
00:30:34.200 --> 00:30:38.839
don't cry kind of thing. And so in addition to

519
00:30:39.200 --> 00:30:44.440
the religious traditionalism, there was also this like you're a

520
00:30:44.480 --> 00:30:46.720
man and you need to act like one and you

521
00:30:46.759 --> 00:30:50.119
need to suck it up and just you know, like

522
00:30:50.799 --> 00:30:55.319
that's that's what you do. I have always been a

523
00:30:55.480 --> 00:30:59.599
very emotional person, but what that caused in me was

524
00:30:59.799 --> 00:31:03.720
the inability to even recognize what I was feeling and

525
00:31:04.559 --> 00:31:08.200
just repressing so much of it. So coming into this

526
00:31:08.279 --> 00:31:14.480
space and being able to begin to explore and allow

527
00:31:14.680 --> 00:31:19.920
this sort of emotional awareness to develop and grow and

528
00:31:20.079 --> 00:31:25.480
to the point where I can really express it has

529
00:31:25.519 --> 00:31:30.759
been really amazing. I know that you know, as an

530
00:31:30.799 --> 00:31:34.480
anonymous creator, obviously you don't see me, but like that

531
00:31:34.599 --> 00:31:36.880
made it a little easier at first to be able

532
00:31:36.920 --> 00:31:40.400
to show those emotions and to express those emotions in

533
00:31:40.880 --> 00:31:43.599
audio that I wasn't able to do that before. And

534
00:31:43.599 --> 00:31:46.000
obviously that kind of bleeds into the rest of my

535
00:31:46.039 --> 00:31:48.400
life because I'm like, oh, I am able to do this.

536
00:31:48.519 --> 00:31:50.759
I am able to begin to recognize the things that

537
00:31:50.799 --> 00:31:54.039
I'm feeling and to communicate them. And in terms of

538
00:31:54.160 --> 00:31:59.799
like community. The one thing that I am grateful for

539
00:32:00.440 --> 00:32:02.880
growing up was that, you know, I grew up. I

540
00:32:02.880 --> 00:32:06.799
grew up with sisters, so I knew how the world

541
00:32:06.880 --> 00:32:11.000
was different for them compared to me. There was like

542
00:32:11.039 --> 00:32:15.400
the double standards and everything, and I grew up observing

543
00:32:15.480 --> 00:32:18.119
it and being close to them and talking to them.

544
00:32:18.200 --> 00:32:20.839
I always sort of knew I was I wasn't really

545
00:32:20.920 --> 00:32:27.119
quite fitting the typical male like like ideal for the

546
00:32:27.920 --> 00:32:30.680
you know, the environment I grew up in, so I

547
00:32:30.720 --> 00:32:34.720
always felt insecure about about things. But being now in

548
00:32:35.000 --> 00:32:38.000
in this community, I think I've just learned to listen

549
00:32:38.599 --> 00:32:44.759
and to kind of see and learn about women's experiences

550
00:32:44.799 --> 00:32:47.559
through what they share and they talk about and with

551
00:32:47.599 --> 00:32:51.119
my partner and there's just there's just so much to learn.

552
00:32:51.160 --> 00:32:55.839
And I have just learned so much about what women

553
00:32:55.920 --> 00:32:59.839
have to deal with on a daily basis that growing

554
00:32:59.920 --> 00:33:03.559
up a male, I didn't realize, Oh, I never had

555
00:33:03.559 --> 00:33:06.880
to think about those things. I never had to think about,

556
00:33:07.039 --> 00:33:09.319
you know, whether or not someone was looking at me

557
00:33:09.400 --> 00:33:12.640
a certain way, or was thinking about doing something, you know,

558
00:33:12.920 --> 00:33:16.720
like behind my back, or like simply just like you know,

559
00:33:17.839 --> 00:33:21.640
asking you to smile, like like you know, it's like

560
00:33:22.599 --> 00:33:29.400
I've become so disappointed with so much, so many things,

561
00:33:29.480 --> 00:33:32.200
so many things in society that have just never been challenged,

562
00:33:32.240 --> 00:33:35.319
and things that are protected that shouldn't be protected versus

563
00:33:35.400 --> 00:33:37.519
the people who should be and it's just there's so

564
00:33:37.680 --> 00:33:42.440
much there. But I've just always been an open minded person,

565
00:33:42.720 --> 00:33:46.559
and that means that I've also been open minded to

566
00:33:46.720 --> 00:33:49.839
the fact that maybe I don't know all things, you know,

567
00:33:50.000 --> 00:33:53.720
and there's space to learn, and I have learned. I've

568
00:33:53.799 --> 00:33:57.160
learned so much. I've I feel like I'm not the

569
00:33:57.200 --> 00:34:00.759
same person I was when I started this, Like I'm wow,

570
00:34:01.440 --> 00:34:04.839
I'm different. I feel it. I feel it even in

571
00:34:05.480 --> 00:34:07.359
like the way that I approach the mic on a

572
00:34:07.359 --> 00:34:09.599
weekly basis when I'm thinking about what I'm going to do,

573
00:34:09.760 --> 00:34:12.960
it is if I can say it is. It has

574
00:34:13.039 --> 00:34:19.480
become this thing that is almost I'm very passionate about

575
00:34:19.480 --> 00:34:21.480
the things that I do. And there's almost like there's

576
00:34:21.480 --> 00:34:26.079
almost a spiritual aspect to yeah to creativity for me,

577
00:34:27.880 --> 00:34:32.079
and I'm connecting to something and I'm channeling it. I've

578
00:34:32.119 --> 00:34:35.920
been more aware. I've become more aware of the feelings

579
00:34:35.960 --> 00:34:38.960
and the things that people are going that are experiencing

580
00:34:39.000 --> 00:34:43.079
around me. And in a lot of ways, I feel

581
00:34:43.119 --> 00:34:47.079
like I kind of just kind of hone in to

582
00:34:47.199 --> 00:34:51.880
sort of this almost like collective cloud of like feeling

583
00:34:52.400 --> 00:34:54.760
and I and I try to work from there. I

584
00:34:54.800 --> 00:34:58.599
think my best work comes from those moments. I don't

585
00:34:58.639 --> 00:35:02.239
always get it right, but I do have sort of

586
00:35:02.280 --> 00:35:08.480
this desire I guess to speak to like the core

587
00:35:08.760 --> 00:35:13.679
of what we may be feeling electively. I don't always

588
00:35:13.679 --> 00:35:17.480
do it, but I feel like I do tend to

589
00:35:18.400 --> 00:35:22.159
like gravitate towards that approach, and I think that's why.

590
00:35:23.719 --> 00:35:26.239
I think that's why I've made it this far, because

591
00:35:26.239 --> 00:35:30.199
I always want to do something that's meaningful, and sometimes

592
00:35:30.239 --> 00:35:32.960
it's fun to just be spicy and be hilarious, of course,

593
00:35:33.119 --> 00:35:35.880
wild and silly, and that's cool, that's really creative. But

594
00:35:35.960 --> 00:35:38.599
I think that really drives me is that that idea

595
00:35:38.639 --> 00:35:43.880
that I could actually speak to something that really matters,

596
00:35:44.199 --> 00:35:49.719
that is going to be impactful beyond the entertainment aspect

597
00:35:49.920 --> 00:35:54.800
of audio erotica. And I feel like that's really me

598
00:35:55.719 --> 00:36:01.239
and it's been it's been interesting. It's led me to

599
00:36:01.679 --> 00:36:05.880
feel scripts that tell stories that are very different, and

600
00:36:06.119 --> 00:36:08.280
sometimes I'm like doing it, I'm like, do I really

601
00:36:08.320 --> 00:36:09.960
want to do this because it's just like it's almost

602
00:36:10.039 --> 00:36:12.000
kind of sad and I don't know if like this

603
00:36:12.079 --> 00:36:17.360
even belongs in this space. And so I've taken, you know,

604
00:36:17.440 --> 00:36:22.559
I've taken some sort of creative risks, and I've just

605
00:36:22.679 --> 00:36:26.239
learned to kind of trust my gut on these things

606
00:36:26.360 --> 00:36:28.960
and just know that, you know, not not everyone's gonna

607
00:36:29.360 --> 00:36:31.760
love everything I do, and that's that's okay. That's part

608
00:36:31.800 --> 00:36:37.079
of being creative. But but yeah, just just doing those

609
00:36:37.440 --> 00:36:40.119
new things or different things or things that maybe are

610
00:36:40.159 --> 00:36:44.000
unexpected in this space are is kind of in my niche.

611
00:36:44.800 --> 00:36:47.599
That's if I can, if I can say that, do.

612
00:36:47.519 --> 00:36:49.920
You find the conversations you're having with your male friends

613
00:36:49.960 --> 00:36:52.880
now you've said you've you know, you think you're you've

614
00:36:52.960 --> 00:36:55.320
changed to be a completely different person now or to

615
00:36:55.400 --> 00:36:57.760
a different person now than you work back? Then, do

616
00:36:57.800 --> 00:37:01.280
you find the conversations you have with your male friends

617
00:37:01.320 --> 00:37:07.519
now are more rounded or still more traditional?

618
00:37:07.960 --> 00:37:12.039
Yes, it's it's been. I mean they've noticed the change.

619
00:37:12.119 --> 00:37:16.440
And I think partly the changes due to me working

620
00:37:16.880 --> 00:37:23.559
on myself so consistently as well. Mental health has always

621
00:37:23.599 --> 00:37:29.039
been a really big thing for me. It is something

622
00:37:29.079 --> 00:37:36.719
that I've struggled with and I've been consistently like working

623
00:37:36.800 --> 00:37:41.000
through things with a therapist for all long time now

624
00:37:41.119 --> 00:37:43.639
and working out a lot of these things that you know,

625
00:37:43.679 --> 00:37:47.480
we're sources of guilt and shame growing up, and you know,

626
00:37:47.519 --> 00:37:49.880
I'm doing this now and it's like, how is it

627
00:37:50.199 --> 00:37:53.000
moving me forward? How is it changing me? But my

628
00:37:53.199 --> 00:37:59.079
male friends they were already a little different because I

629
00:37:59.119 --> 00:38:02.239
was already a little different then I feel like I

630
00:38:02.280 --> 00:38:07.599
feel like the conversations we have are very they become

631
00:38:07.639 --> 00:38:11.280
more open in terms of sex because guys never talk

632
00:38:11.360 --> 00:38:15.400
about like sex in a way that women talk about sex.

633
00:38:15.559 --> 00:38:20.760
They're not as as open about their sex lives. It's

634
00:38:20.800 --> 00:38:24.119
it's a it's a real like vulnerable feeling. I think

635
00:38:24.280 --> 00:38:26.119
for for a lot of guys to talk to other

636
00:38:26.440 --> 00:38:29.639
men about their sex lives, like oh, something weird happening

637
00:38:29.679 --> 00:38:32.239
with their partner or like those are not things they

638
00:38:32.239 --> 00:38:35.920
typically share, but you know, now with my with my

639
00:38:35.960 --> 00:38:39.079
close friends, like we will we will talk about those things.

640
00:38:39.079 --> 00:38:43.239
We will talk about like you know, how how are

641
00:38:43.320 --> 00:38:46.840
you dealing like with intimacy and like how do you

642
00:38:46.960 --> 00:38:50.000
feel about you know, the like how do you feel

643
00:38:50.000 --> 00:38:51.800
about your sex life? Like what are some of the

644
00:38:51.840 --> 00:38:54.559
things that maybe you've like repressed because like I've repressed

645
00:38:54.559 --> 00:38:57.360
so much here like that's so weird, or like what

646
00:38:57.360 --> 00:38:59.679
do you think about you know, how how can we

647
00:39:00.480 --> 00:39:05.519
be better at listening at like protecting because it almost

648
00:39:05.599 --> 00:39:08.719
feels like there's so much stuff happening, There's so many

649
00:39:08.880 --> 00:39:10.719
bad things in the world, Like how how do we

650
00:39:11.880 --> 00:39:14.480
how do we counter that in a way that is

651
00:39:14.719 --> 00:39:18.559
that is helpful because sometimes it does feel like there's

652
00:39:18.599 --> 00:39:22.320
so few of us that actually care. So it's it's gotten,

653
00:39:22.480 --> 00:39:28.599
it's gotten to that. And I think that having a

654
00:39:28.639 --> 00:39:35.199
partner has really helped throughout the process of this and

655
00:39:35.280 --> 00:39:38.960
the conversations that I have with her are you know,

656
00:39:39.440 --> 00:39:41.519
like some things I just don't even know about. Like

657
00:39:42.880 --> 00:39:46.760
she brought up the whole thing with this website I'm

658
00:39:46.800 --> 00:39:50.119
sure you've heard about, and I had, I had no idea.

659
00:39:50.199 --> 00:39:52.960
I was like what, She's like, yeah, like I'm sure,

660
00:39:53.000 --> 00:39:55.320
I'm like I have what are you talking about right now?

661
00:39:55.360 --> 00:39:57.719
She's like everyone's talking about like I don't know what like,

662
00:39:58.320 --> 00:40:00.360
and it came as such a shock to me. Yeah,

663
00:40:01.639 --> 00:40:05.360
and it's just like, okay, how do we I mean

664
00:40:05.400 --> 00:40:07.559
I think growing up, I would see, you know, like

665
00:40:08.119 --> 00:40:10.719
as like maybe a teenager or even younger, like the

666
00:40:10.760 --> 00:40:14.039
way that boys talked about girls and like the things

667
00:40:14.039 --> 00:40:16.719
that they would say about them behind their back, and

668
00:40:16.960 --> 00:40:19.480
I would feel uncomfortable. I didn't exactly know what to

669
00:40:19.519 --> 00:40:22.159
do about it or how, you know, Like I was

670
00:40:22.199 --> 00:40:24.760
also trying to fit in and like I was always

671
00:40:24.840 --> 00:40:28.079
kind of like this the weird kid, and so like

672
00:40:28.800 --> 00:40:30.960
it was just weird, Like I already felt at that

673
00:40:31.039 --> 00:40:33.079
point like something's wrong and I don't know how to

674
00:40:33.440 --> 00:40:35.000
deal with it. I don't know who to talk to

675
00:40:35.039 --> 00:40:39.119
about it. And now it's like, oh no, like I

676
00:40:39.280 --> 00:40:42.719
just I just need to be like, you know, like

677
00:40:42.800 --> 00:40:45.119
how would I react if this was like my partner,

678
00:40:45.239 --> 00:40:50.599
Like like it's just like anger, Like this's just all

679
00:40:50.639 --> 00:40:53.320
this anger that would come out, And it's like how

680
00:40:53.360 --> 00:40:55.320
do we how do we confront and how do we

681
00:40:55.400 --> 00:40:59.719
talk to people about things that we see that are

682
00:41:01.039 --> 00:41:03.800
they're just not good? How do we bring it up?

683
00:41:03.800 --> 00:41:06.119
How do we confront them in a way that doesn't

684
00:41:07.719 --> 00:41:10.480
just like have them ignore us and continue to do

685
00:41:10.519 --> 00:41:12.760
whatever the you know the hell they are doing. How

686
00:41:12.840 --> 00:41:17.800
do we actually make them see like this is not okay.

687
00:41:19.360 --> 00:41:22.840
So it's it's a continuing conversation that I continue to

688
00:41:22.880 --> 00:41:27.280
have with with a lady Lux and with my with

689
00:41:27.320 --> 00:41:30.519
my friends, and it's something that it's like every time

690
00:41:30.559 --> 00:41:32.559
that we talk about it, I'm like I uncover something

691
00:41:32.559 --> 00:41:34.760
else and I'm like, Yeah, that shouldn't have happened. That

692
00:41:34.760 --> 00:41:37.440
shouldn't happen. That shouldn't have happened to you when you

693
00:41:37.440 --> 00:41:39.159
were that age. That shouldn't have happened to me. When

694
00:41:39.159 --> 00:41:42.039
I was that age, like, and there's so many things

695
00:41:42.039 --> 00:41:45.280
that I just like, we were just having a conversation today, like, oh,

696
00:41:45.480 --> 00:41:48.719
like I was just telling her, like something that happened

697
00:41:48.719 --> 00:41:52.760
to me when I was like much younger, and she's like, yeah,

698
00:41:52.800 --> 00:41:55.920
that shouldn't have happened. I'm like, you know, what's weird.

699
00:41:56.039 --> 00:41:58.760
I never thought of that. That never crossed my mind.

700
00:42:00.599 --> 00:42:03.679
And there's so many of those things, and you know, like,

701
00:42:04.440 --> 00:42:08.079
how how are we setting up the world in society

702
00:42:08.119 --> 00:42:10.880
for those that come after us, for those that are

703
00:42:10.880 --> 00:42:13.480
younger that us, for those that are actually growing up

704
00:42:13.880 --> 00:42:17.559
right now. Yeah, I feel I feel a certain sense

705
00:42:17.599 --> 00:42:21.760
of responsibility to do better.

706
00:42:22.519 --> 00:42:28.480
Yeah, it's a tall order to try to to try

707
00:42:28.519 --> 00:42:30.800
to do better because it's it can really feel like

708
00:42:30.840 --> 00:42:35.679
you're swimming upstream a lot of the time. But it's

709
00:42:35.679 --> 00:42:38.800
worth I guess it's worth swimming continuing.

710
00:42:39.360 --> 00:42:43.960
You know, lots of small conversations can lead to big change.

711
00:42:43.599 --> 00:42:44.719
That's exactly.

712
00:42:45.199 --> 00:42:47.320
You've got to have the conversations. It doesn't matter how

713
00:42:47.320 --> 00:42:50.159
small the conversation is, just it can lead to something

714
00:42:50.199 --> 00:42:52.800
a lot bigger. So keep having the conversations, looks, keep

715
00:42:52.800 --> 00:42:53.239
having them.

716
00:42:53.559 --> 00:42:56.159
Yeah, I mean, even the fact that you and Lady

717
00:42:56.199 --> 00:42:58.920
Lux talked about that, and because she told you about

718
00:42:58.920 --> 00:43:01.599
the website, you now it was on your radar, so

719
00:43:01.599 --> 00:43:04.000
it could be on the radar for your other male friends.

720
00:43:04.039 --> 00:43:05.760
Because let me tell you, I don't know one woman

721
00:43:06.000 --> 00:43:09.079
who hasn't heard about that article even but my husband

722
00:43:09.119 --> 00:43:10.000
hadn't heard about it either.

723
00:43:10.400 --> 00:43:14.280
Yeah, that's that's the weird thing about it too. It's

724
00:43:14.320 --> 00:43:16.639
such a big news. How did I not know it

725
00:43:16.679 --> 00:43:19.519
had been a few days by then? And and and

726
00:43:19.599 --> 00:43:21.599
granted I don't spend as much time on social media

727
00:43:22.480 --> 00:43:26.000
as like other people might, and but like it just

728
00:43:26.079 --> 00:43:30.239
hit me and I was just like I couldn't believe her,

729
00:43:30.719 --> 00:43:33.119
Like I was like, what are you? Like, are you serious?

730
00:43:33.199 --> 00:43:38.360
Like this is like an actual thing, and it just

731
00:43:38.480 --> 00:43:41.519
it made me scared. Yeah, it made me scared. And

732
00:43:41.559 --> 00:43:45.000
then it made me just like angry because I feel

733
00:43:45.000 --> 00:43:50.159
like there's it's just been a barrage of things too

734
00:43:50.239 --> 00:43:53.800
much at one time. You know, it's a content everything

735
00:43:53.880 --> 00:43:58.239
is falling apart, and like I think for me, everything

736
00:43:58.280 --> 00:44:04.079
has just been sort of deconstructed. Yea, And yes, you

737
00:44:04.119 --> 00:44:07.320
know it started with you know, these these really traditional

738
00:44:07.320 --> 00:44:10.440
beliefs I held at one point and and that that

739
00:44:11.480 --> 00:44:14.360
you know, I kind of broke through that and now

740
00:44:14.360 --> 00:44:16.440
it's like I just feel I was telling her today,

741
00:44:16.880 --> 00:44:22.239
I just feel like everything, like all of these things

742
00:44:22.280 --> 00:44:26.440
that we've taken for granted about how society works and

743
00:44:26.440 --> 00:44:32.280
and just everything is gone. I don't know what's why.

744
00:44:32.480 --> 00:44:36.079
I feel like I can't trust anyone, and I just

745
00:44:36.280 --> 00:44:41.440
I feel like maybe I'm just starting to beginning to understand,

746
00:44:41.440 --> 00:44:45.199
to begin to understand the world, and I don't like it.

747
00:44:45.559 --> 00:44:49.400
I just don't like it. How can I bring good

748
00:44:49.440 --> 00:44:52.719
things to the world? And how can I bring good

749
00:44:52.760 --> 00:44:55.760
things to people who are nearby? Like like what people

750
00:44:55.800 --> 00:44:59.119
I actually interact with every day, because everyone's going through

751
00:44:59.119 --> 00:45:02.920
this at the same time. And really, the the real

752
00:45:02.960 --> 00:45:05.039
effect I have is in the people that I see

753
00:45:05.039 --> 00:45:06.599
every day, the people that I talk to every day,

754
00:45:06.679 --> 00:45:10.000
like the people who live next door to me. How

755
00:45:10.360 --> 00:45:14.360
how can we how can we bring good to the

756
00:45:14.360 --> 00:45:19.639
world despite so much crap that that we deal with

757
00:45:19.639 --> 00:45:21.639
on every and on every day basis. So that's been

758
00:45:21.679 --> 00:45:25.159
sort of my focus, and I try to bring that

759
00:45:25.239 --> 00:45:27.920
into the space of audio erotica, which sometimes it's weird

760
00:45:27.960 --> 00:45:31.079
because it's like are you erotica? It's like supposed to

761
00:45:31.119 --> 00:45:34.440
be really spicy and exciting, and then sometimes it's like, well,

762
00:45:34.480 --> 00:45:36.760
here I am reading we need the Pooh on Patreon

763
00:45:36.920 --> 00:45:41.039
because you know it's really soothing, and maybe like doing

764
00:45:41.079 --> 00:45:43.800
some like sleep aid stuff and like maybe just having

765
00:45:43.800 --> 00:45:48.159
fun because just I've realized just that being creative is

766
00:45:48.199 --> 00:45:52.719
sort of a rebellion for me against all the shit

767
00:45:52.760 --> 00:45:54.960
that I got deal with, because there have been weeks

768
00:45:54.960 --> 00:45:57.960
when I'm just like I can't I can't sit down

769
00:45:57.960 --> 00:46:01.480
and be creative right now, Like I feel so so

770
00:46:01.599 --> 00:46:03.079
much like like what's the point.

771
00:46:03.440 --> 00:46:06.960
Yeah, I think that's a really uncommon feeling, but I mean,

772
00:46:07.360 --> 00:46:10.920
what's so amazing? This is gonna sound funny, but like

773
00:46:11.039 --> 00:46:12.280
I know when you said, like you feel like you're

774
00:46:12.280 --> 00:46:16.920
seeing the world with clear eyes and it pisses you off. Right,

775
00:46:16.960 --> 00:46:19.880
So that's a great place to be in because that's

776
00:46:19.880 --> 00:46:23.320
where change begins, right when you when you step out

777
00:46:23.320 --> 00:46:26.079
from behind the cloud or the blindness or the whatever

778
00:46:26.119 --> 00:46:28.199
it might be, and you see things and it's like, shit,

779
00:46:29.679 --> 00:46:34.039
this is something. Shit's really wrong here. It's just it's

780
00:46:34.119 --> 00:46:37.440
real refreshing to hear. I mean you can just hear

781
00:46:37.480 --> 00:46:39.320
it every everything that you're saying that you know you're

782
00:46:39.360 --> 00:46:41.440
you're doing the work on yourself. You're doing the work

783
00:46:42.119 --> 00:46:44.519
like Smudge said with like having a small conversations lead

784
00:46:44.559 --> 00:46:47.079
to big change. It's like the more we can do

785
00:46:48.079 --> 00:46:50.639
for ourselves that we then impact our partners and our

786
00:46:50.639 --> 00:46:53.400
communities and our and it just keeps growing out and out.

787
00:46:53.440 --> 00:46:56.159
That when when the world feels like it does now,

788
00:46:56.199 --> 00:46:59.079
that's all we can do is like it feels like

789
00:46:59.199 --> 00:47:03.840
joy is resistant, you know, creativity as resistance, all those

790
00:47:03.920 --> 00:47:06.719
kinds of things. So I think I'm god. I mean,

791
00:47:06.920 --> 00:47:09.239
I'm really hopeful for the path you're on and hope more.

792
00:47:09.159 --> 00:47:09.480
Men for.

793
00:47:11.480 --> 00:47:15.440
It's keeping conversations going, and it's giving us these spaces

794
00:47:15.440 --> 00:47:18.440
and safe spaces to talk openly about things that we

795
00:47:18.519 --> 00:47:22.239
haven't been able to for centuries, to be honest. So

796
00:47:23.079 --> 00:47:27.559
you know, audio erotica may seem such a small stepping

797
00:47:27.599 --> 00:47:30.400
stone to change, but it's bigger than you think.

798
00:47:30.719 --> 00:47:34.559
No, I agree. I don't think that there are very

799
00:47:34.639 --> 00:47:39.440
many spaces that allow for men to really sit with

800
00:47:40.760 --> 00:47:44.559
the like what what is the experience of women? How

801
00:47:44.559 --> 00:47:47.079
do women experience Like I was telling my partner this

802
00:47:47.079 --> 00:47:48.719
the other day, I was like, I don't I've never

803
00:47:48.840 --> 00:47:51.920
sat down to think about what are their first thoughts,

804
00:47:51.960 --> 00:47:54.400
Like if I walk into the room being aware of

805
00:47:54.440 --> 00:47:56.719
the way I move and the way I talk and

806
00:47:56.760 --> 00:47:58.840
the way I say things and the way I treat

807
00:47:58.840 --> 00:48:01.480
people like I I'm much more aware of those things

808
00:48:01.519 --> 00:48:03.559
now than I was before. Before I'd never thought of

809
00:48:03.559 --> 00:48:06.800
those things. I never thought, oh, she might actually perceive

810
00:48:06.880 --> 00:48:09.960
me as like maybe maybe it's a threat or maybe

811
00:48:10.000 --> 00:48:13.480
like the way I speak or the way I move,

812
00:48:13.679 --> 00:48:15.960
Like I don't know what people's experiences have been in

813
00:48:16.000 --> 00:48:19.239
their past, and I I have such I've had such

814
00:48:19.239 --> 00:48:22.360
a great like privilege to not have to worry, like

815
00:48:22.400 --> 00:48:24.400
I don't worry about someone coming in the room, Like

816
00:48:24.440 --> 00:48:27.000
I don't feel threatened. I don't feel like scared. I've

817
00:48:27.000 --> 00:48:28.920
never thought like they're looking at me a certain way.

818
00:48:28.960 --> 00:48:31.880
I'd never thought like there's so many things that now

819
00:48:31.920 --> 00:48:36.599
I consider that I never thought of before, And I'm

820
00:48:36.719 --> 00:48:41.199
just like wow. I remember when, like growing up, it

821
00:48:41.320 --> 00:48:45.880
was like, oh, consent is a thing like you can

822
00:48:46.199 --> 00:48:50.199
ask and if they say yes and they're they're enthusiastic

823
00:48:50.199 --> 00:48:53.199
about it, then it's then it's then it's yes, you know,

824
00:48:53.480 --> 00:48:56.000
like no means no. For me, it was it was

825
00:48:56.199 --> 00:48:59.480
just this thing that it made sense to me, but

826
00:48:59.559 --> 00:49:02.400
I realized for a lot of people it just they

827
00:49:02.719 --> 00:49:04.519
never really saw it in a way that might have

828
00:49:04.679 --> 00:49:06.880
might that could be sexy, that could just be part

829
00:49:06.880 --> 00:49:10.000
of the entire but the part of the experience that

830
00:49:10.039 --> 00:49:14.280
could enhance the experience, uh, you know, instead of like

831
00:49:14.320 --> 00:49:16.119
this thing of like, oh, it's going to kill the vibe,

832
00:49:16.159 --> 00:49:17.679
you know, like what are we gonna do? I'm like, well,

833
00:49:17.719 --> 00:49:20.400
if you're worried about that, then fuck you dude. Like

834
00:49:21.239 --> 00:49:25.480
it's like it's like if you're not in amfortable, then

835
00:49:25.480 --> 00:49:27.760
why the Yeah, it's like why are you doing it?

836
00:49:29.119 --> 00:49:31.880
So yeah, I think all those things are really important,

837
00:49:31.920 --> 00:49:34.639
and I think it's opened It's opened a conversation up,

838
00:49:35.159 --> 00:49:38.400
and for me it's been it's been interesting because also

839
00:49:38.599 --> 00:49:41.960
it's allowed me to open that conversation up with other

840
00:49:42.119 --> 00:49:44.599
men that I interact with that I am friends with,

841
00:49:45.360 --> 00:49:47.559
because sometimes they're curious about it, like you know what, so,

842
00:49:47.639 --> 00:49:50.239
like you're still doing that thing? Like you know, it's

843
00:49:50.280 --> 00:49:56.960
like yeah, because I told a few of them and

844
00:49:56.280 --> 00:49:58.960
and it's like so, so like are you still are

845
00:49:59.000 --> 00:50:01.440
you still doing that? Like yeah, Like they're like, so, so,

846
00:50:01.480 --> 00:50:03.920
what's it? What's it like? Like you know, how do

847
00:50:03.960 --> 00:50:06.760
you feel like, is it is it weird? Like and

848
00:50:06.800 --> 00:50:10.000
I'm like, no, dude, Like it's so different than than

849
00:50:10.039 --> 00:50:13.679
what you probably imagined. Like there, it's there's so much

850
00:50:13.719 --> 00:50:18.239
to it, and there's so there's so much positive to

851
00:50:18.440 --> 00:50:22.239
it that that you just I don't think you could imagine.

852
00:50:22.280 --> 00:50:24.679
So I tell them about about things, the things that

853
00:50:24.679 --> 00:50:26.840
I'm learning and things that i'm I'm working through and

854
00:50:26.880 --> 00:50:31.360
things that I'm you know, experiencing, and it's it's fun

855
00:50:31.400 --> 00:50:33.119
and some of them get it, some of them some

856
00:50:33.199 --> 00:50:36.000
of them maybe kind of don't because they're just not

857
00:50:36.199 --> 00:50:37.559
in I don't know.

858
00:50:41.000 --> 00:50:42.599
Exactly exactly.

859
00:50:42.679 --> 00:50:44.599
I had one of my friends he was like, yeah,

860
00:50:44.760 --> 00:50:46.039
you know so and said I was asking about you.

861
00:50:46.079 --> 00:50:47.760
They were like, yeah, is he still out there being

862
00:50:47.760 --> 00:50:52.360
a porn star? And I'm like, no, that is that

863
00:50:52.480 --> 00:50:55.840
is not what that is. That is not it. Yeah,

864
00:50:56.599 --> 00:50:58.639
there's a big difference between those two things.

865
00:50:58.760 --> 00:51:01.880
Yeah, it's really cool that you like get the how

866
00:51:02.119 --> 00:51:03.800
like you said, how healing the space is because it

867
00:51:03.840 --> 00:51:05.639
really is. For we hear that all the time in

868
00:51:05.679 --> 00:51:08.079
the communities that we're in a lot. So you know,

869
00:51:08.199 --> 00:51:09.960
some some people we speak to the like oh you know, yeah,

870
00:51:09.960 --> 00:51:12.400
I just make spicy videos or audios and that I'm like,

871
00:51:12.440 --> 00:51:15.159
you have no idea. We're around hundreds of women in

872
00:51:15.199 --> 00:51:18.039
these communities talking about the impact that these audiences have on.

873
00:51:18.199 --> 00:51:21.519
And the truth is, we don't actually know on our end,

874
00:51:21.679 --> 00:51:23.599
you know, we do know that has an impact, we

875
00:51:23.639 --> 00:51:27.239
don't know exactly what that impact is. But I think

876
00:51:27.400 --> 00:51:30.360
I think we're we're we're glad to know that that

877
00:51:30.440 --> 00:51:32.559
it is being experienced is a positive thing and it

878
00:51:32.679 --> 00:51:35.920
is healing. And sometimes it's just hearing something that you've

879
00:51:36.039 --> 00:51:40.880
maybe always needed to hear but you never even knew

880
00:51:40.880 --> 00:51:43.760
you you needed it, and it's like it comes through

881
00:51:43.960 --> 00:51:47.360
and or even you know. For me, what's been interesting

882
00:51:47.440 --> 00:51:51.719
is feeling scripts and noticing how, for example, like arguments

883
00:51:51.719 --> 00:51:56.320
are written are like or like apologizing for something, and

884
00:51:56.360 --> 00:52:01.119
I'm like, oh, oh okay, that's that. That's actually really helpful,

885
00:52:01.559 --> 00:52:06.760
and like like I'm learning from the scripts, I'm learning

886
00:52:06.800 --> 00:52:11.440
how these dynamics, and so I'm also learning as I'm

887
00:52:11.920 --> 00:52:15.159
performing things. I'm like, oh, okay, like this is good,

888
00:52:15.280 --> 00:52:17.840
or maybe something is familiar, like maybe I've had a

889
00:52:17.880 --> 00:52:20.840
conversation like that before and it's like, oh, this went

890
00:52:20.960 --> 00:52:23.079
a completely different way and I can see how. I

891
00:52:23.119 --> 00:52:26.119
can see how and why and how people perceive things differently.

892
00:52:27.159 --> 00:52:29.360
And I guess that's another thing that's kind of nerve

893
00:52:29.400 --> 00:52:33.079
wrecking about doing voice acting work, is like, you know,

894
00:52:33.119 --> 00:52:36.000
when you write something, someone might read it and they

895
00:52:36.440 --> 00:52:40.840
perceive it based on their lived experience. They come with

896
00:52:40.880 --> 00:52:44.679
their lived experience to the script or the story, and

897
00:52:44.760 --> 00:52:47.280
like they interpret it through their own eyes, through their

898
00:52:47.320 --> 00:52:52.519
own experience, and sometimes it's completely different. Like I came

899
00:52:52.559 --> 00:52:54.400
at it and I was just completely having fun. It

900
00:52:54.519 --> 00:52:56.159
was just something that maybe I normally say, and I

901
00:52:56.239 --> 00:52:58.639
just said it, and you might experience it a certain

902
00:52:58.639 --> 00:53:02.360
way because of the things that you've experienced through your life,

903
00:53:02.840 --> 00:53:07.039
and maybe you're open to that particular emotion in a

904
00:53:07.119 --> 00:53:09.079
safe space where it's like it's just you and your

905
00:53:09.079 --> 00:53:11.079
headphones and you hear it and you take it in,

906
00:53:11.639 --> 00:53:14.920
rather than having someone you know immediately in front of

907
00:53:14.920 --> 00:53:17.719
you or someone you're actually in a relationship with and

908
00:53:17.760 --> 00:53:22.119
you hear these things. And yeah, So there's just so

909
00:53:22.360 --> 00:53:25.679
much what I like to call magic that happens between

910
00:53:27.119 --> 00:53:31.119
me at the mic and a listener with their headphones

911
00:53:31.440 --> 00:53:32.599
in their context.

912
00:53:32.760 --> 00:53:34.519
So how do you know when an audio is done

913
00:53:34.679 --> 00:53:38.360
is there a certain feeling you're chasing when it's completed.

914
00:53:42.360 --> 00:53:43.119
That's what she said.

915
00:53:43.519 --> 00:53:52.159
It's hard, it's done. No work's done here. It's difficult

916
00:53:52.199 --> 00:53:59.239
to know because I almost always are I basically never

917
00:53:59.360 --> 00:54:01.760
feel like something's done. I get to the point where

918
00:54:01.760 --> 00:54:06.239
I submit an audio because I think this is good.

919
00:54:06.960 --> 00:54:07.679
Is it perfect?

920
00:54:08.039 --> 00:54:08.079
No?

921
00:54:08.960 --> 00:54:12.440
But do I have more time? Absolutely not, And I

922
00:54:12.480 --> 00:54:14.639
need to hit that submit button and I and I

923
00:54:14.679 --> 00:54:18.360
submit it and then I kind of cringe and I'm like, oh, Okay,

924
00:54:18.440 --> 00:54:21.079
there it goes, and like I just hope, I hope

925
00:54:21.119 --> 00:54:22.639
it gets approved. I hope they don't send it back

926
00:54:22.639 --> 00:54:26.039
for edits. It's it's difficult to know. Especially I think

927
00:54:26.079 --> 00:54:28.880
that writing my own scripts has gotten me into it's

928
00:54:29.039 --> 00:54:31.719
It's made me challenge my own perfectionism because I'm like,

929
00:54:31.760 --> 00:54:36.280
it can't it can't always be the perfect as I

930
00:54:36.280 --> 00:54:39.800
imagine it to be. It's going to be a little different.

931
00:54:40.159 --> 00:54:42.800
I also do some where it's just completely improvised, and

932
00:54:42.800 --> 00:54:45.039
then those I think, I think it's just when I

933
00:54:45.159 --> 00:54:46.639
feel it, and then I feel it, I feel it

934
00:54:46.679 --> 00:54:49.480
and I know and it's done. Those are probably the

935
00:54:49.559 --> 00:54:53.719
easiest in that sense, but once I submit it, I

936
00:54:53.719 --> 00:54:57.079
think the imposter syndrome is so much higher for completely

937
00:54:57.079 --> 00:55:01.280
improv stuff than that. I'm just like, oh my god,

938
00:55:01.280 --> 00:55:05.920
I can't believe I just submitted that. So yeah, it's

939
00:55:06.079 --> 00:55:09.800
it's I guess, I don't. It depends on the project,

940
00:55:09.840 --> 00:55:12.519
and it just depends on where I'm at mentally and

941
00:55:13.039 --> 00:55:13.599
in the space.

942
00:55:13.719 --> 00:55:16.679
Yeah, how about your style?

943
00:55:16.800 --> 00:55:18.639
Has that kind of evolved at all since you've been

944
00:55:18.639 --> 00:55:20.480
doing this now two plus years.

945
00:55:20.960 --> 00:55:29.800
I don't know. I've always been sort of very chaotic, uh,

946
00:55:29.840 --> 00:55:33.239
And I like to try different things and do different things.

947
00:55:34.400 --> 00:55:36.679
Not all my audios are the same type. I like

948
00:55:36.719 --> 00:55:40.599
to jump around, I think style wise, I don't know.

949
00:55:40.840 --> 00:55:42.880
I think the main thing that's changed is maybe the

950
00:55:42.920 --> 00:55:46.400
novelty of it. It's it's not as new to me anymore.

951
00:55:46.599 --> 00:55:49.679
I was like this excited puppy when I first got in,

952
00:55:51.519 --> 00:55:54.519
and now I don't think of it the same way.

953
00:55:54.679 --> 00:55:57.039
It's still it's still exciting. It's just it's just a

954
00:55:57.079 --> 00:55:59.800
different kind. It's like a different kind of love for

955
00:55:59.800 --> 00:56:04.679
the work. I think my approach has been to focus

956
00:56:04.880 --> 00:56:06.880
more on the work. You know. I started on like

957
00:56:06.920 --> 00:56:09.880
TikTok and like Instagram, and so I realized that at

958
00:56:09.880 --> 00:56:12.800
some point like these things are taking more time away

959
00:56:12.840 --> 00:56:15.719
from me and my energy that I want to put

960
00:56:15.719 --> 00:56:20.519
into creating these things and actually putting the work out

961
00:56:20.559 --> 00:56:24.000
and like growing. And so I've actually sort of just

962
00:56:24.599 --> 00:56:28.679
reduced my my media presence, my social media presence to

963
00:56:28.960 --> 00:56:32.000
just TikTok and Patreon, and I use the rest of

964
00:56:32.039 --> 00:56:36.920
the time to actually unplug's. That's become sort of something

965
00:56:36.960 --> 00:56:39.800
that I've I've gotten an habit of I've gotten a

966
00:56:39.840 --> 00:56:42.159
habit of picking up a book and just reading, and

967
00:56:42.159 --> 00:56:43.679
I don't want to be out with my phone. I

968
00:56:43.800 --> 00:56:48.320
just want to just sit down and not do ten

969
00:56:48.480 --> 00:56:53.639
things at the same time because I'm so like everywhere,

970
00:56:53.840 --> 00:56:57.639
so scatterbrained, and so I've learned to like I need

971
00:56:57.679 --> 00:57:01.880
to sit down and go outside and not have anything

972
00:57:01.960 --> 00:57:07.119
playing and allow my brain to be creative in ways

973
00:57:07.159 --> 00:57:09.719
that maybe have nothing to do with audio erotica, so

974
00:57:09.760 --> 00:57:12.800
that when I get into it, like I'm fresh and

975
00:57:12.840 --> 00:57:15.840
I'm refreshed and I can jump into things. Another thing

976
00:57:15.880 --> 00:57:19.039
with social media I had to back off from it

977
00:57:19.079 --> 00:57:22.400
was just there's so much shit online and it's like

978
00:57:23.320 --> 00:57:26.360
and like I can't open up my phone and just

979
00:57:26.559 --> 00:57:28.920
be hit with things. It's almost like they've taken away

980
00:57:29.039 --> 00:57:32.800
our ability to choose what we want to see and

981
00:57:32.800 --> 00:57:36.000
what we expose ourselves to, and they're just like throwing

982
00:57:36.039 --> 00:57:39.480
things at us, and it's like no, no, I can't

983
00:57:39.519 --> 00:57:42.679
do that anymore. I also want to stay informed. So

984
00:57:42.760 --> 00:57:45.519
it's like this weird like balance I have to strike.

985
00:57:45.920 --> 00:57:48.480
But I know myself and I know how sensitive I

986
00:57:48.519 --> 00:57:53.119
am to things, and I don't want that to carry

987
00:57:53.199 --> 00:57:55.920
into my work because I want my work to be

988
00:57:56.079 --> 00:57:59.199
something that is positive, and I want to be able

989
00:57:59.239 --> 00:58:02.039
to get into the booth and be like be here,

990
00:58:02.119 --> 00:58:04.280
be present, because this these are the things that I

991
00:58:04.320 --> 00:58:05.280
can actually control.

992
00:58:06.000 --> 00:58:07.440
It is always a a conundrum of like, you know,

993
00:58:07.480 --> 00:58:08.800
I don't want to bury my head in the sand,

994
00:58:08.840 --> 00:58:10.920
but listen, we couldn't bury our heads in the sand

995
00:58:10.920 --> 00:58:13.599
if we tried these days, Like it's just we're always

996
00:58:13.599 --> 00:58:15.840
gonna find out. I'm gonna because I mean I hadn't.

997
00:58:15.960 --> 00:58:17.880
It's been years since I've watched the news. I just

998
00:58:17.960 --> 00:58:21.239
don't because I'm the same. I'm way too sensitive. I'm

999
00:58:21.280 --> 00:58:24.719
like I am a sensitive sponge. It's incredibly empathetic, and

1000
00:58:24.719 --> 00:58:28.199
it's it's a heavy road to carry, and so I

1001
00:58:28.239 --> 00:58:31.280
have to just protect my piece and I'm gonna find

1002
00:58:31.320 --> 00:58:33.880
out what's going on, of course, But like you said,

1003
00:58:33.880 --> 00:58:35.559
look when you when you go in the booth and create,

1004
00:58:35.639 --> 00:58:38.320
Like I believe when any artist creates anything, whether it's

1005
00:58:38.320 --> 00:58:40.559
an audio in here, whether it's a book that they

1006
00:58:40.559 --> 00:58:42.840
write or piece of music, the energy with which you

1007
00:58:42.920 --> 00:58:46.679
create that is also communicated to the end user. So

1008
00:58:47.039 --> 00:58:50.440
I can appreciate wanting to go into the booth with

1009
00:58:50.760 --> 00:58:55.199
energy that's not toxic from social media. Yeah, and more clear,

1010
00:58:55.320 --> 00:58:57.559
because that's that's gonna come across the audio.

1011
00:58:58.719 --> 00:59:05.840
You know, agreed, What's one thing after this time? You

1012
00:59:05.880 --> 00:59:08.119
wish people understood about the space or you.

1013
00:59:09.719 --> 00:59:14.039
I saw recently a post someone wrote something I don't

1014
00:59:14.079 --> 00:59:18.679
remember where I saw it, something about celebrities exist in

1015
00:59:18.719 --> 00:59:22.440
a space that isn't real. There's this weird space that

1016
00:59:22.480 --> 00:59:26.719
people put you on, like a pedestal or something, because

1017
00:59:28.280 --> 00:59:31.800
you know, you're a creator or some sort or you're

1018
00:59:31.960 --> 00:59:34.599
in a particular platform and all of a sudden, there's

1019
00:59:34.719 --> 00:59:37.519
like this aura around you. I guess I just I

1020
00:59:37.679 --> 00:59:41.320
just like people to realize that, Like we're human. I

1021
00:59:41.360 --> 00:59:44.400
think that's that's the biggest thing for me. Like we're human,

1022
00:59:44.880 --> 00:59:51.400
we have feelings, we are not like these super human

1023
00:59:51.559 --> 00:59:56.119
people or these celebrities, Like we deal with shit day

1024
00:59:56.159 --> 00:59:59.199
in and day out. We do so much other things

1025
00:59:59.199 --> 01:00:02.440
that are just like you. Everyone is. I think, you know,

1026
01:00:02.559 --> 01:00:05.920
everyone has like this intrinsic value. But like, I don't

1027
01:00:05.960 --> 01:00:09.920
want to be put on a pedestal because it's it's

1028
01:00:10.039 --> 01:00:13.639
just not good. It's just not good for us as vas.

1029
01:00:13.679 --> 01:00:16.559
It's not good for listeners or the audiences to put

1030
01:00:16.639 --> 01:00:20.519
us in a certain pedestal. I grew up being put

1031
01:00:20.559 --> 01:00:22.519
on a pedestal, and I just do not want it

1032
01:00:22.599 --> 01:00:27.360
as well. So we I appreciate, you know, anonymity, and

1033
01:00:27.559 --> 01:00:31.719
I appreciate the respect that I've received from the community,

1034
01:00:31.760 --> 01:00:34.880
and I want to also give that respect as well

1035
01:00:34.920 --> 01:00:38.760
to my audience who have been very generous in supporting

1036
01:00:38.800 --> 01:00:43.320
me and just you know, listening and being fun. You know,

1037
01:00:43.519 --> 01:00:45.360
like if I were just saying, I say it a

1038
01:00:45.360 --> 01:00:49.320
lot like take care of yourselves, because you know, I

1039
01:00:49.360 --> 01:00:54.360
know a lot of us are constantly online, and it's

1040
01:00:54.400 --> 01:00:57.199
like it's so easy to ignore the things that you

1041
01:00:57.280 --> 01:01:00.760
actually do need in your life and I don't know,

1042
01:01:00.800 --> 01:01:02.840
fill it up with other things that take up your time.

1043
01:01:03.159 --> 01:01:05.800
I have become very aware of that in my own life,

1044
01:01:06.079 --> 01:01:09.159
and so I just I guess I just want to

1045
01:01:09.159 --> 01:01:12.519
share that with people. I've always just wanted to be

1046
01:01:12.599 --> 01:01:15.880
a source of inspiration and a source of something good

1047
01:01:15.920 --> 01:01:18.440
in the world. And what we each of us does

1048
01:01:18.480 --> 01:01:22.239
affects other people that we might not even know. And

1049
01:01:22.320 --> 01:01:25.039
so I think that's helped me to commit myself to

1050
01:01:25.760 --> 01:01:29.559
like improving me. I think if we if we want

1051
01:01:29.599 --> 01:01:34.159
to change things, you got to change ourselves. And mm hmmm,

1052
01:01:34.360 --> 01:01:37.519
that's sometimes the most the hardest thing to do, right, Like.

1053
01:01:37.760 --> 01:01:40.519
It's the hardest thing to do so different.

1054
01:01:41.800 --> 01:01:43.800
So for those of you who are working on yourselves,

1055
01:01:43.840 --> 01:01:45.079
more power to you, you.

1056
01:01:45.039 --> 01:01:49.400
Know, do keep going, keep going with different.

1057
01:01:49.360 --> 01:01:51.760
Some of us like pine up on our pizzasn't a wrong.

1058
01:01:52.159 --> 01:01:56.440
Yeah, you know, I feel like we're tied because luck

1059
01:01:56.519 --> 01:01:57.400
and I think that's good.

1060
01:01:57.440 --> 01:01:58.760
But Kas has never had that.

1061
01:01:58.840 --> 01:02:00.760
You've never had that totally on too, though, Like I'm

1062
01:02:01.079 --> 01:02:01.639
I'm in for it.

1063
01:02:01.960 --> 01:02:06.639
Well next time you okay, oh my.

1064
01:02:06.559 --> 01:02:09.239
God, I'm so nervous, just gonna slipper or some money

1065
01:02:09.280 --> 01:02:10.519
to say the wrong thing.

1066
01:02:12.679 --> 01:02:14.519
You'll see, Like here we are on Tuesday, Like this

1067
01:02:14.599 --> 01:02:16.360
is you guys, didn't think you were getting a therapy

1068
01:02:16.360 --> 01:02:19.960
Tuesday today, right, and here here comes Lux in to

1069
01:02:20.000 --> 01:02:21.719
save to therapy.

1070
01:02:22.119 --> 01:02:23.760
Kaza goes to therapy every Tuesday.

1071
01:02:24.000 --> 01:02:26.320
They get excited because after my therapy session, I will

1072
01:02:26.400 --> 01:02:28.199
leave them a voicemail with a debrief of what I

1073
01:02:28.280 --> 01:02:31.440
learned that day. So now I didn't know how much

1074
01:02:31.480 --> 01:02:36.119
they've come to rely on it. Yes, we have fucking therapists.

1075
01:02:37.400 --> 01:02:39.079
A voice note, it will be like, that's not you're

1076
01:02:39.079 --> 01:02:40.079
talking about therapy.

1077
01:02:40.400 --> 01:02:41.079
Get out of here.

1078
01:02:42.880 --> 01:02:45.079
We had hairdresser Tuesday the week and I was like,

1079
01:02:45.159 --> 01:02:47.599
what the hell was going on? That's not what I it's.

1080
01:02:49.280 --> 01:02:53.280
You guys should chip in from my se Then lux

1081
01:02:53.320 --> 01:02:54.679
came in and saved the day because I didn't. We

1082
01:02:54.679 --> 01:02:57.599
didn't have therapy Tuesday today, But yes we did. Thank

1083
01:02:57.639 --> 01:02:58.000
you Loox.

1084
01:02:58.519 --> 01:03:03.440
Therapy Tuesday, tack Tuesday. It's fine. It was meant to be.

1085
01:03:03.800 --> 01:03:05.960
Sometimes I'm afraid that I give to card flash.

1086
01:03:07.039 --> 01:03:11.679
That's how my brain works. Look, that was just a nave, genuinely.

1087
01:03:11.519 --> 01:03:15.719
Okay to Oh my god, this is like I could

1088
01:03:15.800 --> 01:03:18.239
talk like this all day long. Hey, so the listener

1089
01:03:18.320 --> 01:03:21.360
questions first, Before we get to the questions, we had

1090
01:03:21.400 --> 01:03:25.039
someone who submitted a comment that we're going to share.

1091
01:03:25.079 --> 01:03:28.760
So this is from La Nuna. Luna won't be asked

1092
01:03:28.800 --> 01:03:32.280
a question. She said, he reads poetry the way it's

1093
01:03:32.320 --> 01:03:36.400
meant to be read, with sincerity, emotion, and vulnerability, and

1094
01:03:36.440 --> 01:03:38.239
I love that I can feel all of that in

1095
01:03:38.280 --> 01:03:41.559
his other audios too. I also appreciate that he doesn't

1096
01:03:41.599 --> 01:03:43.760
go too over the top with them. They're mostly grounded,

1097
01:03:43.920 --> 01:03:47.480
slice of life scenarios that feel honest and real. I

1098
01:03:47.519 --> 01:03:49.920
never fully lose the awareness that they're scripted, but I

1099
01:03:49.960 --> 01:03:53.320
can still easily and comfortably place myself in those scenes

1100
01:03:53.400 --> 01:03:55.920
and forget the world for a few minutes. There's beauty

1101
01:03:55.960 --> 01:03:58.679
and quiet moments and everyday routines, and he really seems

1102
01:03:58.679 --> 01:03:59.360
to understand that.

1103
01:03:59.400 --> 01:04:02.679
So well, mm hmmm, beautiful.

1104
01:04:03.079 --> 01:04:03.920
It's very nice.

1105
01:04:04.800 --> 01:04:07.480
But really take that in like I think, I think

1106
01:04:07.480 --> 01:04:10.639
it really encapsulates your audio.

1107
01:04:10.440 --> 01:04:10.840
Your work.

1108
01:04:11.159 --> 01:04:16.440
That's yeah, yeah, that's absolutely thank you, Thank you.

1109
01:04:18.559 --> 01:04:19.039
All right.

1110
01:04:19.199 --> 01:04:24.239
Our first question is from Kylie. Were you surprised at

1111
01:04:24.239 --> 01:04:27.239
the reactions to you using Spanish in your audios?

1112
01:04:27.639 --> 01:04:30.320
I didn't. I didn't know. I didn't know how people

1113
01:04:30.360 --> 01:04:33.000
would react to it. I I feel like I took

1114
01:04:33.039 --> 01:04:37.039
a creative risk to use Spanish in my audios. I

1115
01:04:37.440 --> 01:04:40.559
think the first time that I used Spanish in an audio,

1116
01:04:41.320 --> 01:04:43.679
I think it was a full Spanish audio. I was

1117
01:04:44.239 --> 01:04:49.320
scared shitless. I didn't know what would happen, but yeah,

1118
01:04:49.360 --> 01:04:53.519
I was. I was very surprised by the reception and

1119
01:04:53.880 --> 01:04:58.559
the just a general feedback that I got from people.

1120
01:04:58.760 --> 01:05:02.079
I feel like a lot of people felt seen and

1121
01:05:03.320 --> 01:05:06.159
that was really incredible. And it was also for me

1122
01:05:06.519 --> 01:05:11.880
a moment of learning to accept that side of myself.

1123
01:05:12.239 --> 01:05:15.320
Not that I necessarily rejected it, but I mean I

1124
01:05:15.360 --> 01:05:20.199
am I am a son of immigrants in the United States,

1125
01:05:20.679 --> 01:05:26.840
and growing up, Spanish was just not something you wanted

1126
01:05:26.920 --> 01:05:30.920
to speak in public or at school or you know.

1127
01:05:31.079 --> 01:05:34.079
It was There's a certain warmth to it because it

1128
01:05:34.119 --> 01:05:38.039
comes from the sense of home, but also it's something

1129
01:05:38.119 --> 01:05:43.360
that is looked down upon elsewhere. So just doing that,

1130
01:05:43.440 --> 01:05:46.519
I wanted to do it because I knew that there

1131
01:05:46.519 --> 01:05:49.159
would be people who would feel seen by it, but

1132
01:05:49.280 --> 01:05:51.000
I also didn't I was scared because I was like,

1133
01:05:51.000 --> 01:05:52.800
I don't know if I'm going to do this well

1134
01:05:52.840 --> 01:05:58.400
because I've never listened to Spanish audio. Eeronica, Like, there's

1135
01:05:58.400 --> 01:06:00.599
certain things I don't know how to say, Like you

1136
01:06:00.639 --> 01:06:03.960
know how to portray, but Yeah, it was really exciting

1137
01:06:04.000 --> 01:06:06.960
and I was really like it was really nerve wrecking,

1138
01:06:07.599 --> 01:06:10.880
but to see the feedback and the reception felt very

1139
01:06:11.119 --> 01:06:14.360
almost kind of healing, like this is also part of

1140
01:06:14.400 --> 01:06:17.719
who I am and it's good.

1141
01:06:18.159 --> 01:06:21.599
And Yeah, We've got a couple of questions about guitar,

1142
01:06:21.639 --> 01:06:23.559
so I'm gonna put them both in one. So from

1143
01:06:23.719 --> 01:06:31.199
Missus p Zoo and from Real Ali Cat. So Missus says,

1144
01:06:31.199 --> 01:06:33.400
have you thought about playing more guitar in your audios?

1145
01:06:33.519 --> 01:06:35.840
And Real Ali Kat says, what's your favorite song to

1146
01:06:35.920 --> 01:06:36.840
perform on the guitar?

1147
01:06:37.559 --> 01:06:43.440
Okay, So I have thought about playing guitar in an

1148
01:06:43.480 --> 01:06:49.599
audio and that might be happening pretty soon. I have

1149
01:06:49.679 --> 01:06:52.840
a project I'm working on that will include guitar playing.

1150
01:06:53.079 --> 01:06:58.440
My favorite thing to play on the guitar. I like

1151
01:06:58.559 --> 01:07:02.840
to just sort of improvise on the guitar, and I

1152
01:07:02.840 --> 01:07:07.000
think this is what's maybe different. Guitar has always been

1153
01:07:07.039 --> 01:07:10.440
sort of a self soothing thing for me, and I

1154
01:07:10.480 --> 01:07:12.639
think I realized that recently. But I've been playing guitar

1155
01:07:12.639 --> 01:07:16.199
for a very very long time, since I was like thirteen,

1156
01:07:16.480 --> 01:07:20.079
twelve thirteen. I don't know, for me, playing guitar feels

1157
01:07:20.239 --> 01:07:24.599
It's like it's self soothing because I get to kind

1158
01:07:24.599 --> 01:07:29.360
of just get into a flow state where I'm not

1159
01:07:29.760 --> 01:07:34.480
thinking about things. I'm feeling things. And as someone who

1160
01:07:35.199 --> 01:07:39.159
kind of always repressed emotions, to be able to express

1161
01:07:39.199 --> 01:07:41.880
it in that way was just helpful. And there's also

1162
01:07:41.920 --> 01:07:44.920
something very soothing about feeling like that, the vibration of

1163
01:07:44.960 --> 01:07:47.320
the instrument on your body. Those are just things that

1164
01:07:47.360 --> 01:07:51.360
I liked, and those that's what makes it my favorite

1165
01:07:51.519 --> 01:07:54.400
thing to do. So I don't have a particular thing

1166
01:07:54.440 --> 01:07:57.719
that I always play. I like to play things, but

1167
01:07:57.760 --> 01:07:59.960
I don't often go out of my way to learn

1168
01:08:00.239 --> 01:08:02.840
something new, like a popular song or anything like that.

1169
01:08:02.880 --> 01:08:06.039
To perform, it's usually just me sitting with the guitar

1170
01:08:06.159 --> 01:08:09.039
or like feeling just the sound. Sometimes I'll just sit

1171
01:08:09.039 --> 01:08:10.960
in the room, like with the lights off, like at night,

1172
01:08:11.039 --> 01:08:15.239
and just like play in the dark. Like that's kind

1173
01:08:15.280 --> 01:08:17.079
of what I like to do. I did play in

1174
01:08:17.119 --> 01:08:20.079
a few bands and I got that experience too, But

1175
01:08:20.399 --> 01:08:23.039
my favorite and absolute favorite thing to do is is

1176
01:08:23.720 --> 01:08:27.079
like shut the lights off, just shut the mind down

1177
01:08:27.319 --> 01:08:30.880
and just like focus on sound. That's that's what I

1178
01:08:30.880 --> 01:08:34.680
thought I would be doing. I thought I would become

1179
01:08:34.720 --> 01:08:36.760
a musician. I thought this is what I was gonna do.

1180
01:08:37.199 --> 01:08:39.760
I didn't think I would be doing like audio erotica stuff,

1181
01:08:40.079 --> 01:08:43.520
but I realized there there's sort of a crossover of like,

1182
01:08:43.800 --> 01:08:48.840
you know, like really focusing on the emotion of things

1183
01:08:48.960 --> 01:08:50.840
and allowing myself to flow in that.

1184
01:08:51.359 --> 01:08:53.359
So, yeah, that's well.

1185
01:08:53.359 --> 01:08:55.079
If I could put in a guitar request for you,

1186
01:08:55.159 --> 01:08:57.399
seven Spanish een jels by Woody Nelson.

1187
01:08:59.279 --> 01:09:01.159
Specific it's one of my favorite.

1188
01:09:01.159 --> 01:09:03.560
It's one of my favorite guitar when I hear the

1189
01:09:03.560 --> 01:09:08.439
guitar because it's got that Spanish fine country five no

1190
01:09:08.520 --> 01:09:10.640
no Spanish and country type five.

1191
01:09:10.520 --> 01:09:13.000
Yeah, Spanish angels.

1192
01:09:13.800 --> 01:09:15.359
I mean, we haven't seeing a lot of your guitar

1193
01:09:15.640 --> 01:09:18.600
TikTok slately. We were saying before you arrived that it

1194
01:09:18.720 --> 01:09:21.119
was like all of a sudden. Maybe it's not all

1195
01:09:21.119 --> 01:09:22.920
of a sudden, but like we're seeing more of you

1196
01:09:23.000 --> 01:09:27.479
on social media, posting more in general on social media.

1197
01:09:27.640 --> 01:09:28.840
I'm posting more on TikTok.

1198
01:09:28.920 --> 01:09:31.199
Yeah, okay, because I'm like, we're seeing more about off.

1199
01:09:31.199 --> 01:09:32.680
It's just because it was the guitar that found its

1200
01:09:32.680 --> 01:09:32.960
way to me.

1201
01:09:34.399 --> 01:09:38.319
Lots of FIP, which was it right, right, that's so funny.

1202
01:09:38.600 --> 01:09:44.680
Exactly which one was it. I think that I've changed

1203
01:09:44.720 --> 01:09:48.239
my approach towards social media. I think TikTok itself is

1204
01:09:48.279 --> 01:09:52.199
just a really different beast, and I just wanted it

1205
01:09:52.239 --> 01:09:58.399
to be something positive. Music to me is it's kind

1206
01:09:58.399 --> 01:10:02.439
of just a big light to me, like in my life.

1207
01:10:02.640 --> 01:10:05.359
So I just I'm like, yeah, this is still kind

1208
01:10:05.399 --> 01:10:09.000
of shock in all people because I'm an erotic voice actor,

1209
01:10:09.039 --> 01:10:11.199
but you're not even hearing my voice. I'm just like

1210
01:10:11.239 --> 01:10:13.439
playing guitar. I'm just gonna I'm just gonna play guitar

1211
01:10:13.439 --> 01:10:15.760
for you, Like that's essentially what I'm doing. I'm gonna

1212
01:10:15.760 --> 01:10:17.039
show up on your scream, I'm gonna play a tar

1213
01:10:17.079 --> 01:10:20.520
for you, and I just play. And it's also because

1214
01:10:20.560 --> 01:10:22.479
it's not something that I don't think a lot of

1215
01:10:22.479 --> 01:10:25.199
people knew that I did. It's one of these funny

1216
01:10:25.199 --> 01:10:27.880
things about me that I don't immediately share with people

1217
01:10:28.000 --> 01:10:30.560
that I play guitar. I think a lady Lex didn't

1218
01:10:30.560 --> 01:10:34.039
know I played guitar to like a long time after

1219
01:10:34.079 --> 01:10:36.600
she like we met, and it was just something that

1220
01:10:36.600 --> 01:10:41.800
I didn't want to like lead with and I just

1221
01:10:41.960 --> 01:10:45.359
decided I'm just gonna try this out. I think she

1222
01:10:45.520 --> 01:10:47.319
was in the room when I started playing, and I

1223
01:10:47.359 --> 01:10:49.600
was like, I think I'm going to record this, and

1224
01:10:49.600 --> 01:10:51.840
she's like, yeah, go for it, and I just hit

1225
01:10:51.920 --> 01:10:54.079
record and that the room was a little dark so

1226
01:10:54.119 --> 01:10:56.600
you could just barely see me, and I'm I'm literally

1227
01:10:56.680 --> 01:11:00.520
just playing around like I didn't get into a performance

1228
01:11:00.560 --> 01:11:03.239
mode or anything. I just and even like the video

1229
01:11:03.279 --> 01:11:05.000
is a little dark, you just see my hand. I

1230
01:11:05.039 --> 01:11:06.840
didn't know how people would react to that.

1231
01:11:07.119 --> 01:11:08.279
You do now.

1232
01:11:11.239 --> 01:11:14.800
And now I'm like, oh, okay, this is this could

1233
01:11:14.800 --> 01:11:17.640
be a thing, like I could just continue doing this

1234
01:11:17.760 --> 01:11:20.159
and I and and the reactions and comments and everything,

1235
01:11:20.159 --> 01:11:23.279
I'm like, wow, I didn't think people will react this

1236
01:11:23.359 --> 01:11:27.880
way because this isn't this isn't audio erotica related at all.

1237
01:11:29.880 --> 01:11:35.960
Women, not everything is all about exactly.

1238
01:11:36.680 --> 01:11:38.560
Yeah, I mean yeah.

1239
01:11:38.399 --> 01:11:40.119
But but it looks really.

1240
01:11:40.000 --> 01:11:43.520
Nice and it's clear. I mean it's so clear. It's

1241
01:11:43.520 --> 01:11:45.560
so clear that you you play guitar so well. You

1242
01:11:45.560 --> 01:11:47.079
could tell just by the way that you play like

1243
01:11:47.119 --> 01:11:49.640
he's this is not someone who sucks around with guitar

1244
01:11:49.680 --> 01:11:51.960
like he plays. You could just really tell.

1245
01:11:52.000 --> 01:11:54.079
Yeah, you don't play guitar, like well, you speak Spanish

1246
01:11:54.079 --> 01:11:58.439
and I'm gonna throw this in because somebody, somebody, somebody

1247
01:11:58.479 --> 01:12:01.800
sent in a question in Spanish, and I think each

1248
01:12:01.840 --> 01:12:06.560
one of us should say it in our own like whatever,

1249
01:12:08.640 --> 01:12:12.079
and if you understand it, and if you understand any

1250
01:12:12.119 --> 01:12:14.359
of it from any of us, so we'll each say

1251
01:12:14.399 --> 01:12:18.159
it what it's written down. I got clue, and then

1252
01:12:18.319 --> 01:12:23.600
you can see which one you understand.

1253
01:12:23.800 --> 01:12:34.119
Oh okay, great, all right? Tiennis planiado a Tiennis planniados

1254
01:12:34.399 --> 01:12:36.399
audios and Espaniel Quin.

1255
01:12:37.720 --> 01:12:42.560
Jules tienna is plannado as ser mass adios and Espaniel Quin.

1256
01:12:43.960 --> 01:12:44.840
That's gonna win.

1257
01:12:44.800 --> 01:12:51.960
Smudge, Tiens planiado hayeser mass audios on Espano para quin.

1258
01:12:53.479 --> 01:12:54.680
That was That was the best one.

1259
01:12:54.760 --> 01:12:55.159
Thank you.

1260
01:12:56.279 --> 01:12:57.279
I knew.

1261
01:12:59.079 --> 01:13:00.079
Had that hit that brit.

1262
01:13:01.479 --> 01:13:02.720
There you go, you got it.

1263
01:13:03.199 --> 01:13:09.119
Let me Do you have mm hmm plans mm hmmm

1264
01:13:10.720 --> 01:13:11.720
something more ado?

1265
01:13:15.680 --> 01:13:21.159
You guys got it? Yeah? Uh. I don't have uh

1266
01:13:22.159 --> 01:13:24.960
like a script rate to go or anything, but I

1267
01:13:25.000 --> 01:13:30.319
do plan to do more audios in Spanish for Quinn.

1268
01:13:30.920 --> 01:13:34.439
I don't know that I'll do a full Spanish audio

1269
01:13:34.520 --> 01:13:39.439
because I I do want my audience to understand, so

1270
01:13:39.479 --> 01:13:42.760
I think bi lingual audios is my way to go.

1271
01:13:43.920 --> 01:13:46.520
I'm not ruling out full Spanish audience in the future,

1272
01:13:46.520 --> 01:13:49.920
but I don't have any plans to do one there yet.

1273
01:13:50.479 --> 01:13:54.359
I want to be as genuine as possible, and I

1274
01:13:54.399 --> 01:13:56.960
think the last bilingual ones that I've done are the

1275
01:13:56.960 --> 01:14:00.760
most genuine to me because it's my lived experience. Bilingual

1276
01:14:01.600 --> 01:14:05.720
communication with a partner in my context in the US

1277
01:14:06.159 --> 01:14:09.520
is where I'm at, and it's the most genuine to me,

1278
01:14:11.000 --> 01:14:12.439
So that's that's why.

1279
01:14:12.520 --> 01:14:14.359
But yeah, I mean, yeah, as you can see, I

1280
01:14:14.399 --> 01:14:16.960
mean all three of us were basically fluent.

1281
01:14:18.279 --> 01:14:22.640
Yes, exactly, changes from place to place, exactly.

1282
01:14:24.079 --> 01:14:25.079
There's a dialect.

1283
01:14:26.159 --> 01:14:29.199
There's a tiny pocket in spin understood what I said.

1284
01:14:30.319 --> 01:14:37.640
No, there's not in your audio, CLO is that how

1285
01:14:37.680 --> 01:14:39.439
you pronounced it? That was a beautiful use of the

1286
01:14:39.439 --> 01:14:43.279
built because even the parts of it where you're speaking Spanish,

1287
01:14:43.960 --> 01:14:46.479
you know what's happening in the scene, even without being

1288
01:14:46.479 --> 01:14:51.039
able to translate the words. So that was really yeah,

1289
01:14:51.079 --> 01:14:53.560
And that was a powerful audio anyway, like Jesus so

1290
01:14:53.720 --> 01:14:55.600
powerful the statement of the world, you know.

1291
01:14:57.039 --> 01:15:02.640
Thanks, Yeah, that was yeah, yeah, that was I didn't

1292
01:15:02.680 --> 01:15:04.960
know how people would react to that one either, but

1293
01:15:05.399 --> 01:15:10.319
I felt it was needed. I just needed something that

1294
01:15:10.399 --> 01:15:15.039
I also needed to do. But yeah, I think that

1295
01:15:15.039 --> 01:15:19.560
that is the bilingual context that I'm most comfortable in.

1296
01:15:20.199 --> 01:15:23.079
Mm hmm. Yeah, And I guess we kind of like

1297
01:15:23.399 --> 01:15:25.479
spoken code. Like, So for listeners who haven't heard that

1298
01:15:25.520 --> 01:15:28.199
audio yet, could you just give like a quick snippet

1299
01:15:28.239 --> 01:15:30.279
about what the plot, what it's about.

1300
01:15:30.720 --> 01:15:36.600
Yeah. I think it was released in June of last year.

1301
01:15:36.640 --> 01:15:42.239
I don't quite remember, but we were experiencing some really,

1302
01:15:43.079 --> 01:15:47.439
some really tough times. It was sort of the first

1303
01:15:47.479 --> 01:15:52.439
time that ICE was out there picking people up from

1304
01:15:52.520 --> 01:15:58.560
different places. It's just a completely different way of enforcing policies,

1305
01:15:58.600 --> 01:16:02.359
I guess. And I didn't want to make something that

1306
01:16:02.640 --> 01:16:07.119
was outright political. I wanted to make something that was

1307
01:16:07.239 --> 01:16:11.000
very human and it was really it was really difficult

1308
01:16:11.039 --> 01:16:14.039
for me to get into the creative headspace at that time,

1309
01:16:14.640 --> 01:16:17.880
and I think that what helped me get there was

1310
01:16:18.000 --> 01:16:21.640
just thinking, I'm just going to tell a story of

1311
01:16:21.840 --> 01:16:29.319
things that we are actually experiencing and how people, real life,

1312
01:16:29.399 --> 01:16:32.279
every day people are experiencing it, and how it's affecting

1313
01:16:32.279 --> 01:16:35.399
our lives. Because like it or not, it's happening, and

1314
01:16:35.439 --> 01:16:37.920
it's happening to us, and it's happening in our communities,

1315
01:16:38.119 --> 01:16:40.920
and I just want to invite you to walk in

1316
01:16:40.960 --> 01:16:45.399
our shoes for about twenty minutes. And that was that

1317
01:16:45.560 --> 01:16:52.359
because I didn't know how else to express it. I

1318
01:16:52.399 --> 01:16:55.399
think that there is power in people being able to

1319
01:16:55.520 --> 01:16:58.720
understand the experiences of others, even if it's not their

1320
01:16:58.720 --> 01:17:03.760
own lived experience. I didn't want to take the route

1321
01:17:03.800 --> 01:17:09.239
of arguing against something or just yelling and screaming about something.

1322
01:17:09.399 --> 01:17:11.520
I wanted to have you walk in our shoes. And

1323
01:17:12.199 --> 01:17:17.039
so the story just surrounds a couple who are having

1324
01:17:17.079 --> 01:17:20.600
these conversations that like everyday normal people that I knew

1325
01:17:20.640 --> 01:17:23.520
were having, including myself, of like, hey, you know, so

1326
01:17:23.640 --> 01:17:26.439
and so is really scared about this, and it's really

1327
01:17:26.439 --> 01:17:28.520
they're really anxious about it, and they're afraid to leave

1328
01:17:28.560 --> 01:17:31.359
their home even though they are they're fine, like they

1329
01:17:31.359 --> 01:17:33.960
shouldn't be worried or scared about this happening to them,

1330
01:17:34.000 --> 01:17:36.960
but there's just so much fear and uncertainty around it.

1331
01:17:37.039 --> 01:17:41.439
And you know, my partner in the audio asking me like, hey,

1332
01:17:41.600 --> 01:17:45.479
like are you carrying your documentation with you? And I'm like,

1333
01:17:45.720 --> 01:17:48.039
why the fuck do I need to carry documentation? Like

1334
01:17:48.920 --> 01:17:50.600
I don't need to, Like I don't need to worry

1335
01:17:50.640 --> 01:17:52.960
about this at all, and yet here we are worrying

1336
01:17:53.000 --> 01:17:57.560
about it and and it's affecting us. And so that's

1337
01:17:57.680 --> 01:18:00.199
that's where it came from. But I also wanted to

1338
01:18:00.359 --> 01:18:03.359
have that aspect of I guess for me, my culture

1339
01:18:03.479 --> 01:18:09.520
is very like we can get through anything, and there's

1340
01:18:09.600 --> 01:18:13.359
this aspect of we can we can joke about things,

1341
01:18:13.479 --> 01:18:17.239
and we can have fun even in these moments of

1342
01:18:17.680 --> 01:18:21.079
a complete uncertainty. And so that that's what that audio

1343
01:18:21.279 --> 01:18:26.119
kind of invites the listener into. And as it progresses,

1344
01:18:26.159 --> 01:18:29.479
it it goes from like this nervous, anxious state to

1345
01:18:29.760 --> 01:18:31.760
more of like, Okay, we're just gonna have time together

1346
01:18:31.800 --> 01:18:34.560
and have fun and we're gonna get sexy with each

1347
01:18:34.560 --> 01:18:37.960
other and like whatever, you know. And then I ended

1348
01:18:38.079 --> 01:18:41.479
on a note of again kind of bringing it back

1349
01:18:41.520 --> 01:18:44.640
to reality. There's a there's a there's a knock at

1350
01:18:44.640 --> 01:18:48.600
the door, and then all of a sudden, we're back

1351
01:18:48.640 --> 01:18:51.800
to where we were at at the beginning. And it's

1352
01:18:51.880 --> 01:18:56.600
just like I felt that I really needed to do that,

1353
01:18:57.000 --> 01:19:00.560
And again, I didn't know how it would be received.

1354
01:19:00.600 --> 01:19:03.520
I didn't know. I just don't know, you know, because

1355
01:19:03.680 --> 01:19:06.279
it's such a divisive issue. I don't think it should be,

1356
01:19:06.279 --> 01:19:06.680
but it is.

1357
01:19:08.000 --> 01:19:09.760
Yeah.

1358
01:19:10.520 --> 01:19:13.199
Yeah, so and also it's like does it does it

1359
01:19:13.239 --> 01:19:16.800
even belong in audio erotica again? You know? And I

1360
01:19:17.199 --> 01:19:20.800
feel like I continue to find ways to I just

1361
01:19:20.800 --> 01:19:24.880
want to be real. Yeah, And I guess that's that

1362
01:19:25.039 --> 01:19:26.920
was the best way to do it for me, And

1363
01:19:27.039 --> 01:19:29.640
it was also the best way to kind of kick

1364
01:19:29.720 --> 01:19:33.479
my creative mind back in the gear, because I really

1365
01:19:33.560 --> 01:19:39.079
did feel this sense of not safe and you kind

1366
01:19:39.079 --> 01:19:41.239
of have to be in a safe headspace to be

1367
01:19:41.279 --> 01:19:47.359
able to create. And that's not something that's completely gone

1368
01:19:47.520 --> 01:19:53.279
for me, but it. I guess we've learned to deal

1369
01:19:53.319 --> 01:19:57.159
with it, to manage the anxieties and fears that maybe

1370
01:19:57.199 --> 01:20:00.199
we grew up as kids and thinking like, oh my god, gosh,

1371
01:20:00.239 --> 01:20:02.159
I'm going to get home from school one day, my

1372
01:20:02.199 --> 01:20:04.359
parents are not going to be there. Those things that

1373
01:20:04.920 --> 01:20:08.079
we sort of outgrew and we became adults, and now

1374
01:20:08.359 --> 01:20:11.760
we see it happening to others. It still kind of

1375
01:20:11.800 --> 01:20:16.319
triggers this like fear. But uh, I think that's another

1376
01:20:16.399 --> 01:20:21.359
reason why I've sort of focused on here, like here

1377
01:20:21.680 --> 01:20:25.720
with myself here at home, here with like my actual

1378
01:20:25.920 --> 01:20:29.359
like neighbor, like my neighborhood, my community, you know, the

1379
01:20:29.359 --> 01:20:32.000
people who I actually talk to, And so you know,

1380
01:20:32.039 --> 01:20:35.000
I don't say what I do or or what I'm

1381
01:20:35.000 --> 01:20:38.680
working on on like the internet or social media or whatever,

1382
01:20:38.880 --> 01:20:40.960
like I don't you know, I want to. I guess,

1383
01:20:41.119 --> 01:20:47.000
lead with action, and lead with love, and lead with understanding,

1384
01:20:47.039 --> 01:20:51.760
and lead with this openness to change and to understanding

1385
01:20:51.760 --> 01:20:54.720
other people and to understanding that people on both sides

1386
01:20:54.720 --> 01:20:58.880
are human and that honoring that is It's something that

1387
01:20:58.920 --> 01:21:03.439
requires a certain sense of courage and strength. And yeah,

1388
01:21:03.520 --> 01:21:06.239
there's there's a lot. I don't talk about this very

1389
01:21:06.239 --> 01:21:12.000
often because it does reach very deep into who I

1390
01:21:12.039 --> 01:21:18.399
am as a person, and I think that myself, as

1391
01:21:18.560 --> 01:21:25.000
many others are, I hope hopeful still that that good

1392
01:21:25.279 --> 01:21:31.760
can happen and that humans can remember that we are

1393
01:21:31.920 --> 01:21:35.119
all on the same planet at the same time, and

1394
01:21:35.159 --> 01:21:39.800
that we are sharing this world together. And it's like

1395
01:21:40.279 --> 01:21:43.359
watching the Artemis Mission and then them, you know, like

1396
01:21:43.600 --> 01:21:46.319
shooting off to the moon and whatever. Like the most

1397
01:21:46.319 --> 01:21:49.479
impressive thing for me was being able to look back

1398
01:21:49.560 --> 01:21:52.119
on Earth and being like, we're all on this thing together,

1399
01:21:52.359 --> 01:21:57.720
We're all experiencing tragic things. Why can't we just look

1400
01:21:57.920 --> 01:22:02.640
beyond ourselves and yes, and just why, you know, and

1401
01:22:03.359 --> 01:22:07.640
I want to continue to be optimistic and sometimes that's

1402
01:22:07.720 --> 01:22:12.520
really difficult to do, but I do see the value

1403
01:22:12.560 --> 01:22:15.720
in that. And I think that creativity is a rebellion

1404
01:22:15.760 --> 01:22:23.560
against this dystopian hopelessness that is so pervasive. And I

1405
01:22:23.800 --> 01:22:27.279
don't want to I don't want to add more to that.

1406
01:22:27.399 --> 01:22:30.600
I don't want to add any more toxicity to the

1407
01:22:33.239 --> 01:22:37.000
It's just so much like, let's just not do that anymore.

1408
01:22:37.039 --> 01:22:39.920
And I want to do something that is going to

1409
01:22:39.960 --> 01:22:46.760
be healing, and obviously that begins with me and then words.

1410
01:22:46.760 --> 01:22:50.399
So that's that's I don't even remember what the question was, but.

1411
01:22:50.399 --> 01:22:56.079
Yeah, well, to be fair, we normally ask our you know, guests,

1412
01:22:56.359 --> 01:22:58.680
a final question about what is sexual freedom? But to

1413
01:22:58.720 --> 01:23:02.800
be fair, like happy that we've just talked about general

1414
01:23:02.840 --> 01:23:07.800
freedom and I think that covered in its entirety for me.

1415
01:23:08.039 --> 01:23:08.640
How about you?

1416
01:23:09.680 --> 01:23:12.680
Yeah, thank you for the really thoughtful work you put

1417
01:23:12.680 --> 01:23:18.680
out there. It matters and it hits, so thanks, yeah, thanks,

1418
01:23:18.720 --> 01:23:21.520
thanks for the internality behind it.

1419
01:23:21.520 --> 01:23:26.319
It's been a journey, oh my god, really amazing one,

1420
01:23:26.439 --> 01:23:29.439
an amazing conversation.

1421
01:23:29.079 --> 01:23:30.920
So amazing, Oh my gosh.

1422
01:23:31.039 --> 01:23:33.920
We went everywhere I love it.

1423
01:23:33.960 --> 01:23:37.439
I love it.

1424
01:23:36.960 --> 01:23:40.399
It's been a genuine pleasure and thank you so much

1425
01:23:40.439 --> 01:23:42.800
for your honesty, your vulnerability.

1426
01:23:43.119 --> 01:23:45.760
Thanks for having me, thanks for inviting me.

1427
01:23:46.319 --> 01:23:49.520
Oh thanks for accepting the invitations. But really, such such

1428
01:23:49.520 --> 01:23:51.960
a pleasure. You have a Patreon, I know because I'm

1429
01:23:52.000 --> 01:23:54.920
in it. Can you share a little bit about what

1430
01:23:54.960 --> 01:23:56.880
goes on in there so people know what is what

1431
01:23:56.960 --> 01:23:57.760
waits them?

1432
01:23:57.920 --> 01:24:00.880
Yeah, so the Patreon. Honestly, it's like I'm inviting you

1433
01:24:00.920 --> 01:24:03.199
to my living room where I come in and hang

1434
01:24:03.239 --> 01:24:05.960
out with you guys, and I create stuff that maybe

1435
01:24:06.079 --> 01:24:08.640
is not necessarily stuff that you would to hear on Quinn.

1436
01:24:08.760 --> 01:24:11.520
I do have like the group chat that's on there.

1437
01:24:11.600 --> 01:24:13.840
You don't have to actually be in the group chat.

1438
01:24:13.880 --> 01:24:15.640
You can choose to be on it or not, and

1439
01:24:15.680 --> 01:24:18.399
that's totally fine. But I do share updates on like, Hey,

1440
01:24:18.439 --> 01:24:20.439
I'm working on this audio for this week, and like,

1441
01:24:20.479 --> 01:24:23.000
what do you guys think about this? I think for

1442
01:24:23.119 --> 01:24:24.800
let me take care of you. I did ask you know,

1443
01:24:24.880 --> 01:24:27.479
what are some like I like to have some like

1444
01:24:27.600 --> 01:24:29.720
audience or listener feedback, Like what are some of the

1445
01:24:29.760 --> 01:24:32.479
things that you would feel are really comforting that could

1446
01:24:32.520 --> 01:24:34.439
be an audio erotica, and I just kind of took

1447
01:24:34.439 --> 01:24:37.000
some of those ideas and ran with them. I read

1448
01:24:37.079 --> 01:24:41.199
safer work things, I read poetry, I read books. I've

1449
01:24:41.199 --> 01:24:44.399
been reading Winnie the Pooh, but I got to do

1450
01:24:44.439 --> 01:24:47.199
all the voices and stuff, and some people really love that.

1451
01:24:47.560 --> 01:24:50.199
I've been working on getting some music recorded so I

1452
01:24:50.199 --> 01:24:52.439
can I can post it there, so like I have

1453
01:24:52.520 --> 01:24:54.840
things on TikTok to maybe like a minute long or

1454
01:24:54.920 --> 01:24:58.760
thirty seconds or whatever, so I have like longer content

1455
01:24:58.840 --> 01:25:03.399
on there. It's honestly, like I said, for me, it's

1456
01:25:03.600 --> 01:25:06.880
it's a place where I get to go and be

1457
01:25:07.119 --> 01:25:10.800
creative in maybe a little bit of a different way.

1458
01:25:11.239 --> 01:25:13.760
There is there. There still are like you know, spicy

1459
01:25:13.800 --> 01:25:16.560
audios on there, but it's not the only thing that

1460
01:25:16.640 --> 01:25:19.119
I do. So when I first started Patreon, I was

1461
01:25:19.159 --> 01:25:21.920
so like intimidated by it because I'm like, I don't

1462
01:25:22.039 --> 01:25:24.720
exactly how do you do this? I don't know what

1463
01:25:24.760 --> 01:25:28.000
people are expecting, Like, I don't know. So yeah, I

1464
01:25:28.000 --> 01:25:29.960
mean I think it's all just a lot of fun

1465
01:25:30.079 --> 01:25:32.000
and I get to be kind of spontaneous and creative.

1466
01:25:32.039 --> 01:25:36.039
We recently did a haiku writing challenge and I got

1467
01:25:36.039 --> 01:25:39.479
to read everyone's Haiku's and it's just it's just fun.

1468
01:25:39.640 --> 01:25:42.279
It's been a really great space. It's been really fun.

1469
01:25:42.560 --> 01:25:46.760
I enjoy I enjoy the little community there. So basically,

1470
01:25:46.800 --> 01:25:49.640
like I don't I'm not posting like every day on

1471
01:25:49.680 --> 01:25:51.319
social media, but I do go on Patreon and I

1472
01:25:51.359 --> 01:25:55.800
try to like basically, that's my that's my space. I'll

1473
01:25:55.920 --> 01:25:59.840
post photos of my pets and maybe coffee or what

1474
01:26:00.199 --> 01:26:01.479
I'm writing that that week.

1475
01:26:01.880 --> 01:26:06.079
So and you do have some poetry poetry?

1476
01:26:06.319 --> 01:26:06.520
Yes?

1477
01:26:09.359 --> 01:26:10.880
Sorry, do I have something stuck in my ear? I

1478
01:26:11.199 --> 01:26:13.079
didn't hear the first letter in that word.

1479
01:26:14.119 --> 01:26:17.000
A poet poetry.

1480
01:26:17.159 --> 01:26:19.399
Yes, it's freaking awesome.

1481
01:26:19.880 --> 01:26:22.720
It's so good that it is.

1482
01:26:22.960 --> 01:26:27.199
I don't need the explain if it's exactly what I think.

1483
01:26:27.159 --> 01:26:29.439
Is that is exactly it?

1484
01:26:29.520 --> 01:26:29.800
I can't.

1485
01:26:30.159 --> 01:26:32.720
Yeah, but it's a fun space. And it's so funny

1486
01:26:32.720 --> 01:26:34.560
because like you're I mean, I didn't know you had

1487
01:26:34.560 --> 01:26:38.399
a Patreon at all until you posted a guitar TikTok

1488
01:26:39.319 --> 01:26:42.159
of all things there, and I was like, because obviously

1489
01:26:42.239 --> 01:26:44.399
I comment on every guitar one because I love it.

1490
01:26:44.880 --> 01:26:46.439
But you said something like, oh yeah, there's even more

1491
01:26:46.439 --> 01:26:51.279
of this on my Patreon. I'm like, what, there's a

1492
01:26:51.319 --> 01:26:54.319
patre music. So it's one of those like you know,

1493
01:26:54.359 --> 01:26:56.000
you guys know Patreon, right, like, let me hop on

1494
01:26:56.039 --> 01:26:58.119
for a month and check. I'm like, oh, I'm home.

1495
01:27:00.159 --> 01:27:02.600
The people are so sweet in there, and like, yeah,

1496
01:27:02.600 --> 01:27:07.880
it's just thinking guitar king. Oh my god, I love no,

1497
01:27:08.000 --> 01:27:10.319
I just feel music deeply smudge.

1498
01:27:12.119 --> 01:27:13.760
I don't think you're supposed to do that with the guitar.

1499
01:27:13.840 --> 01:27:19.039
But well, I am, I am glad, I am glad

1500
01:27:19.079 --> 01:27:21.640
you joined, and I'm I'm glad that you that you

1501
01:27:21.760 --> 01:27:24.439
have had a good experience. I think everyone there is,

1502
01:27:24.560 --> 01:27:27.399
they're they're great. I don't post about Patreon as often.

1503
01:27:27.600 --> 01:27:29.560
I guess what I want people to know about Patreon.

1504
01:27:30.640 --> 01:27:34.000
Something I would lead with is it's not just exclusively

1505
01:27:34.039 --> 01:27:38.079
spicy things. It's a space for me to be creative

1506
01:27:38.279 --> 01:27:42.720
and interactive and that's where most of that happens. And

1507
01:27:42.800 --> 01:27:45.560
so if you do like the guitar playing, if you

1508
01:27:45.600 --> 01:27:48.319
do like the poetry and the writing and the chaotic creativity,

1509
01:27:48.479 --> 01:27:49.239
that's where it's at.

1510
01:27:50.079 --> 01:27:51.159
Look, it's been brilliant.

1511
01:27:51.159 --> 01:27:54.880
Thank you so brilliant, Thank you, thank you for having We.

1512
01:27:54.800 --> 01:27:56.119
Can't wait to have you back on.

1513
01:27:56.279 --> 01:27:58.279
Yes, please with the guitar.

1514
01:28:01.079 --> 01:28:01.840
A guitar game.

1515
01:28:03.640 --> 01:28:05.720
Thanks loxing your lunch hours more than over.

1516
01:28:05.840 --> 01:28:08.119
Yes, sorry, get back to work.

1517
01:28:08.359 --> 01:28:10.159
I gotta get back to the ground.

1518
01:28:11.840 --> 01:28:13.039
Enjoy the rest of you want.

1519
01:28:14.000 --> 01:28:15.800
Thank you, bye bye.

1520
01:28:18.159 --> 01:28:21.960
All Right, So that was looks it was, Oh my gosh,

1521
01:28:22.000 --> 01:28:23.359
I didn't want to stop talking.

1522
01:28:24.399 --> 01:28:28.079
That was I mean, that went so many different ways, but.

1523
01:28:28.079 --> 01:28:30.479
It was so deep and like, it was so deep

1524
01:28:31.279 --> 01:28:33.640
it was, I mean, he really gets the power of

1525
01:28:33.680 --> 01:28:38.079
this work and the intentionality puts into it. I don't know,

1526
01:28:38.199 --> 01:28:38.880
I was obsessed.

1527
01:28:39.520 --> 01:28:42.880
Even he's just hearing someone someone that we're chatting with,

1528
01:28:42.960 --> 01:28:46.880
talking about how he's changed talking to his friends.

1529
01:28:46.720 --> 01:28:47.720
Outside of the space.

1530
01:28:47.800 --> 01:28:51.560
Right, Oh my god, that was wonderful to hear and

1531
01:28:51.600 --> 01:28:53.119
just to have him kind of not go down a

1532
01:28:53.199 --> 01:28:55.800
rabbit hole about it, but just be so so so

1533
01:28:55.840 --> 01:28:59.000
interested in wanting to make that difference with his male friends.

1534
01:28:59.399 --> 01:29:02.880
Huge, I mean massive, really massive that he's yeah, that

1535
01:29:02.960 --> 01:29:05.000
he he wants to make such a difference that he's

1536
01:29:05.039 --> 01:29:07.199
doing his own work. And then yeah, pastoral long to

1537
01:29:07.239 --> 01:29:08.560
friends and community.

1538
01:29:08.159 --> 01:29:11.640
And exactly told you, small conversations lead to big changes

1539
01:29:11.880 --> 01:29:13.119
and lovely.

1540
01:29:13.239 --> 01:29:16.479
Yeah, well it's a big conversation that will lead to

1541
01:29:16.600 --> 01:29:17.239
big changes.

1542
01:29:17.439 --> 01:29:17.960
Here you go.

1543
01:29:18.600 --> 01:29:22.000
Thanks once. We can't wait to have you back. All right, cliticians,

1544
01:29:22.039 --> 01:29:24.319
we hope you enjoyed our conversation with Lux as much

1545
01:29:24.319 --> 01:29:30.640
as we did. You know the deal. If you can comment, rate, review, share,

1546
01:29:30.800 --> 01:29:33.720
all the things, would really appreciate it. We love any feedback,

1547
01:29:33.760 --> 01:29:36.920
any topic ideas. You can email us at quincast podcast

1548
01:29:37.199 --> 01:29:39.399
at gmail dot com. You can go to our website

1549
01:29:39.479 --> 01:29:43.239
quincast dot com and leave us a voicemail, which is fun.

1550
01:29:44.359 --> 01:29:46.640
But yeah, we'll be back soon with another great episode.

1551
01:29:46.640 --> 01:29:49.119
For now, this has been Caza. Your voice matters.

1552
01:29:49.600 --> 01:29:51.439
This has been Jules. Go put those lips to good

1553
01:29:51.520 --> 01:29:51.680
use

1554
01:29:52.359 --> 01:29:54.840
And this has been so much Keep winking