S4 E52 - The Ask Us Anything Episode

0:00 You're listening to Quincast, where we have chats about audio erotica and empowerment through desire. And we take you behind the scenes with the pros shaping the industry settle in. Things are about to get spicy and uncensored. As always, Big love to our sponsor, Betty of what Bettymade dot com. She makes amazing stickers and yes there's a whole quin cast collection made just for you. Cute, chaotic and dangerously easy to justify buying. Check her out at what Bettymade dot com. Well, ladies, how are we?

0:53 Ah? I'm doing great, Smudgie, But how are you doing? I think might be the question. I am currently living in's asshole. It is so hot in the UK. My gie, I'm so sorry. You had to count me in to turn my fan off. True, we did. That was twenty seconds ago. My palms have sweated and I have already become a sweaty horrible bullsack mess. Ooh not the ballsack mess. Sweaty bullsacke. I would be sitting there, I would have a big bucket of ice water and I would have my bare feet in them because it would cool your whole body down. Yeah, do you know what is cool about today? Do you know what is cool? What? We're recording our main July episode, and do you know what it is? Tell us it's a question and answer session.

1:44 Yes it is. It's a question and answer ramble, a cuamble. I don't know what or cuamble. I like that though, I like that a cuamble. This is little Ama from our cliticens. Yes, I can't wait to answer some questions you all sent in and they're so good. Thank you so much for everyone that's sent in a question and it's all anonymous, so thank you in advance. And we're really excited to just chat a little bit about a few things. And also, ladies, I do want to bring up that we hit a few milestones recently, didn't we did we? We did? Oh my god, we did fifty episodes. I mean this will be fifty two, I think when it comes out. Yes, sixty two and. One hundred thousand downloads and listens. What what do you?

2:27 What do you mean? What do you action? We have not aged a second. No, this has been a piece of cake minutes of our weeks. We've actually lost wrinkles in the process. This is what I heard more than care. We don't need both talks. If you listen to us or podcast with. Us, quin cast is the fountain of youth? No, no, there we go. So what we're saying a tarlaisms are if you want to stay young, the fountain of youth is to start a podcast. No, or at least let's start listening to audio Rodica. There you go. Yeah, but yeah, one hundred thousand and fifty episodes like. Unbelievable and you know it's so interesting. You know how on social media those you'll get little notifications that say one year ago this happened. Yes, so uh, something popped up and I swiped and it brought me to one from last December, and it was when we were celebrating a hundred listens on one of our episodes. We were, so I know we were, and I hey, to this day, still thrilled, like you know, you know, but I remember being like one hundred people listen to us? What are You're right?

3:35 I do remember that being like wow, like. Just so wonderful and like you actually took the time out of your data sit in your car or while you're cleaning or however you're doing it to listen to us talk This is amazing, So thank you guys so much. Thanks Clitzens. Yeah, it's been pretty life changing, I think cool Row. Yeah, thank you so much for your support, truly, like it's just been so cool in the comments and all that kind of things. So here's to here's the next fifty. Ladies fifty Jesus, can we do the next fifty at winter time in. Yeah, you really gotta wipeing her face with her shirt.

4:19 This is he is definitely not going out as a video. Yeah, oh my god. And then de have glasses on too constantly like sliding down crazy. They're getting like foggy and yeah. So before we get onto the questions, don't forget who we've got on the show as well. Who peaching it real peaching. We got a new Peachain at Reel segment coming up in the middle of the episode for you clitic. Well, anyway, moving on for my absolutely uncomfortable melting mess, We've got a lot of questions that sent me do let's dive in sight start straight. In Kaza dive fucking in. I don't even know what that was, you know, I decided midway to go with an accent. So it's kind of like anyway, all right, so question one, ladies, ready, Yes, what is one thing you have heard in an audio that you want to try and haven't or what is something you've tried and would now recommend to others? Starting off very personal clitticens.

5:26 Verry Okay, so mine is going to be what's something you have tried and would now recommend to others? Okay, again, this is a not suitable for work podcast, Okay. Anyway, uh So, I wish I could remember the exact audio it was. I think it was Lonely Fans. I think it was Honey. I think it was one of the honeys Yes, And in that the tag was dick thuds, and I remember just being like, what the fuck is that? Like, just like like, do you just slapping against the wall? I had no idea. So when I first listened to it and heard what it actually was, I was like, that's kind of cool. I never thought about kind of introducing that into the bedroom in certain ways, And so since we are gonna get a little personal here, that's something I brought into the bedroom semi recently, and my partner absolutely loved it and I loved it too, and I had just never thought about the fact that like thudding on your tongue or on your face a little bit might be really really good and I'm blushing so bad.

6:31 It's so fun. So that's mine. So I recommend doing that because it's really fun. Okay, hmm okay, I will say, can you follow that? Yeah, well I will say that. Like when I see the tag dick thuds, I didn't know what it meant. Well, first of all, I'm married to a woman. But second while I thought, okay, is it like, is it him like smacking his dick on your clip? That could be arousing maybe whatever, But you're saying like your face, Oh, I love it, like smacked me in the face with their genitals. I don't know. I'm usually the one doing it. I'm usually the one like smacking myself with it. Oh okay, okay, yeah, something for everybody.

7:12 Good for you, exactly, exactly, exactly, Okay. All the comments back me up on this, thank you. Yeah, I'm sure. I'm sure it's very popular about you ladies. Kind of mine was like the remote control click thing. Oh okay, so that you've done it and you'll recommend it or you'd like to try it. So that I've bought it, but I haven't yet used it. Oh, so it's one i've I've I heard in an audio, I've heard in a few audios and I want to try it. So I purchased I like remote control one, but I haven't used it yet. So it's an insertion as well as nipple clamp nipple points. And this is the first time you two are hearing about it as well.

8:08 Yes it is, faces were like, it's actually downstairs. I could pick it, bring it up and show you it, but. You would call you down. Who are you giving the remote to? I don't know yet. Who wants to be lucky? Put your name in the comments, lunteers. Yeah, it's all charged and ready to go. I just yeah, I just haven't used it, and I could use it on myself. But the whole point and the reason that I bought it is because I'm a sub and it would give somebody. Now bear in mind, all you know years and years ago, this ship right now there. Is Okay, that's well, now you just gave me an answer because I didn't have one. But yes, remote control totally yours right, like, oh my god, like I think of like a j's audio a taste of control. Yes, holy fuck. Like, I now call any audios that I hear, no matter who they're from, ones that can get me going without any touching is now click audios. Because in that audio AJ talks about click about like these people in the remote for his clients. Huh and so yes, Smudgie, that's oh, that's.

9:20 That's a good one. Click the couci, I like, click the couch, click the. Right. So right, we all know what we're going to be doing at the weekend. Let's move on to the next one. So what made you say, fuck it, let's do this to the podcast? And they say, whatever it is, it was, I am so grateful, Thank you. Take it away, you two. I think for me it was probably the sign on from Smudge because I it Some of you may know the history, but like it came kind of spontaneously in a live some Creators live we were in. I honestly don't remember, and I don't even know how it came up, but talked about throughout a podcast or whatever. Oh, someone said, Smudge, you made a comment and I made a comment. We weren't even like friends at this point, but we each made individual comments on the live and someone said Oh my god, you guys should do a podcast, and I went, oh, funny.

10:17 I hosted an online radio show for my book publisher for many years, and Smudge went, I used to read the news for a radio station, and I was like, oh my god, we should totally chat ha ha ha. And then like I the next day, I went, that could be fucking cool I and I thought, do I want a message Smudge? I think I told this on one of the previous episodes, but I was nervous because I'm like, she was a mod in the community I was in and we weren't didn't have that kind of relationship, and I thought, fuck it, I'm just gonna message her and like all you can do is see if how serious she was, And immediately she was like, yep, let's do it. And I think once so once, I was like, okay, I'm not alone in this, and then we just took it one step at a time and I was like, well, let's have a meeting, a video meeting, and we were blabbed for like two hours. You were out on a walk with your dog sitting in the field.

11:08 Oh I don't think I knew that. That's how you knew right there? You guys chatted for two hours just while you were just. Like the podcast right, wow, And we had a mind dump document that we just threw a bunch of shit down, and when we saw how full the document was, how fast, We're like, fuck it, let's do it. Yeah, it was definitely a fuck it, let's do it moment. Casar asked me and I went fuck it. I think probably the words were fuck it, let's do it, because I just don't say no anything that sparks something in me that makes me think, oh my god, yeah, why not I say yes to So it was always going to be yes. But what made you say fuck it, let's do this when we asked you to be the third anchor?

11:50 Yeah? So that's a really good question because I was just about to say, like, what even made you guys think you needed a third But but I do remember I had I've been listening to podcasts my whole life. I love them, mostly film podcasts, but I never ever thought about being on a podcast or co hosting one. So when I got the call to join you too on a WhatsApp call about about it, and you just said it, I do not even remember having one second of hesitation. Which is crazy because I still like I knew knew you guys. I knew Carrie Kaza a little bit more than Smudge, but at the time, but I remember just being like, why the fuck not, Like why not?

12:33 Like who cares? Maybe five people will will hear this, maybe more will. This is a really good idea, a really good topic. I talked for a living anyway, because I was I was a high school teacher at the time, so we talked all day anyway, and so I just remember saying, like, who the fuck cares? Why not? You never go out in a limb and do things, And so I just literally said fuck it, yeah, just said yes. I said yes pretty probably a little bit quicker than I should have, And I mean that in the best way. I literally was just like, yep, let's go, Yep, let's go. Yeah. And so once you came on board, we spent the next four months four months, so Smuche and I spent some time beforehand and then like four months really wanting to do it, like right, like, really think this through.

13:14 What's our intention behind it? Who do we want to serve? What do we want the listeners to take away from each episode? Because when we started this like I don't know about I do know for you guys too, Like we didn't start this for us. We wanted to talk about this shit, right of course, but this wasn't like, this wasn't about us. It was like, we know how we're impacted by this space. We know other people feel the same, and so what if there's some people who don't participate in these communities who are like, am I a weirdo for this affecting me like this? We thought, let's just talk about it so other people feel less alone. And so that's always been how we've operated, right, It's like, what's in it for the listener? Yes exactly, yes exactly.

13:56 And I do remember at the beginning as well, again not knowing anything about this. I remember looking googling on my phone and saying how to do a podcast in Discord because I thought that's what you both we were going to do it in Discord. I had no idea, so I was trying to google it so I didn't seem like an idiot the first time we chatted about it, so I could be like, yeah, you know, I've heard you can do voice this and this and discord. And that was not that at all. Definitely not at all. No no, no, no no no. But at the time, like I had no idea, and now here we are. Episodes light over one hundred thousand downs and listeners, and I'm just it feels like it's always been part of our lives.

14:37 Yeah, it does. I'm just I'm really proud of us. Yeah, proud. So thanks for that question, and I'm glad you're grateful that we did it. Thank you. All right, next question, I really should have looked at these before. Hey it you don't look at tags, so why would you? Why would you look at the questions? It's true, what is your all time favorite? By? Your all time favorite? Quinn Va. So I'm gonna be like that annoying parent who says I can't pick a favorite. So I'm gonna go with what jumped into my head mm hmm. And what jumped into my head was Good Girl Afternoon by a Nanny Fun. Yeah, hey, changing mind?

15:18 Oh was that yours? Totally? Y you know I've got you know, I've got my backup come on of course. Yeah, that's the first one that popped into my head that I thought, okay, just because that's probably been with me the longest, Like anytime I look in my kind of Quinn Creator library on the Quinn app, you know when you when you subscribe to somebody, he's the bottom one because I think he was probably that means he was probably the first one I subscribed to. Oh a Nanny Fun, we miss you, we miss you? So yeah, Good Girl after Noon by a Nanny Fun is the first one that jumps up for me. Yeah, So that one pretty much is like, oh god, it's just the praise in that it's just so amazing. And is that so I have a question for you then? Is that kind of that audio? Is that kind of what made you realize, you know what the whole good girl thing, call me nice names, praise me a little bit might be something I'm into.

16:08 Yeah, I think that was part of it. Yeah, I mean I definitely liked it. That wasn't the kind of the prominent thing for me, I don't think. I think it's just it's just an any fun right. I Mean he's like hey baby, you know, hey baby, or the messy and just his cooch smooching his top tier and no one will ever match it, and he's just I like, you know what, I really liked was his recordings are messy a little bit, right, you know, he's just like laying down with his phone next to him, like he's not in a booth and he's just so it just felt very it felt very immersive, very real, very like the way he talks to the listener. It's literally he's talking to me, like him right there with him. Truly.

16:56 It was just, yeah, it's just yeah, a good one. Yes, Well, I kind of while I've been listening to you speaking, I've been kind of going, don't say it s much, don't say it just don't you know, And I'm like, yeah, but I don't. It's not a brag at all. But my favorite audio by my all time favorite Quinn Va, my all time favorite quein Via is Aucust, always has been always my favorite audio. Is the first ever script that I ever wrote, and I only wrote one, and I will only ever write one, really, I think definitely, and it was him and it was from a proper For the first time, I was able to open up about an actual scene that i'd done with a dom of mine and put it down on paper and he spoke it, and I was really really proud of it and the fact that should also by my favorite quinn Va.

17:59 I mean if yes, it's just lined all up and I know it's gonna sound fucking narcissistic or whatever, and you know, but I just it was so nice to be able to hear something factually spot on because it was from accurate life. Great. Yes, and my all time is Aucust. It just always will be. He's a daddy dom and that's my thing. So yeah, that's much. I love that. I do too, because it's like I love it because like the interpretation of the question, So like my mind went to which one really kind of like hooked me in and got me going, Yeah, yours is like which one am I like, I'm proud of, I'm connected to, like is meaningful to me? So like that audio was meaningful to you, Yes, for significant reasons. I mean, that was a fucking incredible monologue that you wrote. And to have your favorite Quinnva like ask for it and then recorded, it's pretty fucking amazing.

18:56 It's so awesome. Yeah, yeah, so that was Sorry, Jules, what about you? What's your favorite audio for your favorite cre well your back up? Sorry, I mean we all know I don't pick favorites. I don't have a favorite quinnva ha haha. So yeah, my this is gonna probably come as a surprise actually a little bit because it was to me. But my favorite one by AJ is actually Monostereo if you don't know that one. It is a an audio where AJ used something called the AJ effect where he was able to put the background sounds of the moons and all those fun things as well as the instructions. But you, as the listener, had the opportunity if you were using it with a partner or yourself, you could keep the other moans or you could turn those off and just hear the instructions. Yes, thank you. I thought that was just so brilliant to do, and I used it like I did that and it it was really I feel silly just being like it was so informative, but it really was an audio that just kind of let me kind of just listen and do things that I was, you know, following instructions as well. But if I didn't want to hear those other moans, if I was with my partner or something, that I could just turn those off.

20:13 It was I don't know, it was very eye opening for me and so that I absolutely loved that. And if you've never listened to it again. It's him going through how he thinks his perfect blow job would be. And so I learned a few things that, like, I've tried since then and it's like it works really well. So nice monos. Stereo, mono stereo, a. Little very different ones as well. Yeah, these podcasts waiting because we all very different people. Just it's right and I love it. I love it. Next one, what are your comfort movies? I remember Julius talking about this with you guys, what your comfort movies? Gus, we did talk about that with Julius.

20:53 Yeah, because we were all laughing about how he loved horror movies as his comfort movie. I remember that. Yeah, it's weird. Comfort movies, Hm, I. Have so many. I mean, to me, a comfort movie is just a movie you've seen that's predictable. You know how it's gonna end. There's no anxiety. So so even though horror movies might be a little odd, I watch Scream randomly in the background because I fucking know how that movie ends. I know everything about that movie. I don't get anxious about it. And I know it does sound silly, but it's a nice little dopamine hit. For me, which sounds odd too, but so for me. It's probably that any Spielberg movie except for Schindler's List is a comfort movie for me. And Top Gun Maverick is also another one. I just fucking love watch putting those movies on and just like it makes me happy.

21:51 Yeah, what about you, guys? Yeah, like comfort movies. Ones up up to mine would probably be The Holiday, Seven Dresses. That Kevin Hagel right, yeah, the Bridesmaid. Yes, my god, and probably Devil wors Prada. Why do be such a girly girl? Lines kaza very chick flicky. I know how surprise is mad too, it does surprise. My comfort movies. I love like those. Like when I think of comfort movies, I think, if I come across them on TV, I will watch them every time. Yes, and those are the ones that I will watch again and again and again. Wow.

22:32 What about you, Spongy, Spongy? Yeah, I kind of like the Lost Boys comfort movie, Labyrinth, Clue A one Horse, All one, you know, Rocky horror show all ones where You're right, Casa, that's perfectly poor if it was on the TV, I would if I just happened to find it flicking through finding something else, I would not not watch it. Yeah, it's there, and it's one, like you said, jeels that you can have on in the background and it causes you nothing but comfort. It's like a hug. Yeah, I don't even I put some on sometimes if I'm like writing something or doing something workwise, and I'm working from home, I'll put a movie on. I won't have any sound whatsoever. I'll just have it on the TV, just as the pictures, because the pictures comfort me because I know all the words wordver betam anyway from these you know. So, but just having it on in the background, and I think it's something that you get connected to the characters that are in it as well. So having those in the room with you, they feel like your friends grown up with them, or they're they've been there at difficult times or whatever.

23:46 So it kind of feels like one big movie hug. Yeah, it's an a madic hug O hug. I love that, you know, It's funny. I'm not the kind of person who will go put on a movie I've already seen mm hmm, Like I won't go initiate it. Like if I've seen it, I've seen it. Unless it's like really freaking Actually, I'm trying to think, is there is there one? If it's again, it's if I happen to come across it on TV where it's like, oh, look what's playing. I guess I'll watch it. Yeah, I don't go. I don't replay movies. So you didn't. You didn't see Pirates of the Caribbean seven times in theaters like I did. Oh, oh, I don't even think I saw one. Actually, No, when I was young, I saw what did I see in the movie theater? Six times? I saw oh, footloose? Oh, I've seen The Breakfast Club a lot. That's when I can quote, like that's the one that But again, like those types of things are like it brings you back to that time. So it's less less comfort movie, a more memory movie of like, oh my god, I can picture myself like I was so young when the Breakfast Club came out and it was very influential. Breakfast clubs, animals, fire, all those brat pack ones. I was very young. They were very influential.

25:03 Yeah, I can get some of them. I've watched so many times that you know when it comes up, like there's like quizzes and stuff where it comes up with the beginning of a movie and it's just like the Touchstone pictures bit at the bottom and then you just something starts and it's like, oh, I know what that is? Off you know or whatever? Another great one, Oh so good. Oh. I was watching there's a movie called Ready Player one Spielberg, of course, and I was just I had in the background and there's this tiny little two second music clip that goes, do lul lou and I go back to the future. Turn to the TV. The first time I saw it and it was like, it's from Back to the Future. I've seen Back to the Future eight hundred thousand times, Like, yes, exactly.

25:48 Oh, let me just pause for a second and say, cliticians, we invite you to share your answers to these questions too, like leave it in a comment whatever it is, Like, I want to hear from you guys too, Like, yes, answer these questions. I'll tell you what we do. We'll we'll put some or all of the questions in a little post after this episode drops, and you can all answer them in the comments. I love that. Yes, cool, all right, Next question is who was a va you have not had on the podcast? That you would like to also congrats on one hundred thousand. You all are amazing, Thank you, thank you. I would like to have any fun. For Fox Stakes for real, I would really like. I would really like Sarah Gibson. I ever since I saw her video. It was before I even knew she was on Quinn the video. Do you ever see the video?

26:41 Ten inches video? So there's a close sense really quick. There's a video where she has a ruler and it's pretty much like, what are you gonna fucking do with ten inches a dick? Like, and she goes through like six inches fine, yeah, fine, four inches is fine, eight inches is like you're taking a six day the next day, like and it is the funniest fucking thing. She's like, where where the hell is this all going? Not in here? Not here? And ever since that video, I have been I just think she's fucking awesome. And then when I found out she was on Quinn and been listening, I would love to talk to Sarah Gibson. Yeah, we should probably reach out to her. If you're listening, please come on. I love na audio. I mean, it's na audio. Get me started. It's fuckingna Audio's amazing. But if I had to pick one, that is, you know, not you know, the biggest number in the world. Ever, I would like I'd like to speak to Noble.

27:40 Yeah, it could be interesting, for sure. I genuinely think that is exactly it, because he would be so interesting. Yeah, nobl love that. So Noble and Audio, I'm not going to say that they're both the ends. I don't know what. And a nanny fun we can kind of make it work. And then Sarah Gibson Yeah. Yeah, cool, perfect. So if you're out there. Just getting to do you know, you want to all right, have you noticed any real differences in your own sexual experiences since starting the podcast? If this is too personal, please ignore add I mean, how sweet.

28:22 Are you're thinking that that was a personal question to ask? I mean, do we do we remember how I started this episode exactly. And you have heard all of our other episodes. I mean, we've faked orgasms on a show, so. Oh my god, oh my god. I actually forgot about that for a moment. I still will never forgive him for that. Ever. Where's the audio, by the way, Yeah yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I definitely have. I mean even just from the place of like different communication or just Also, what I've found is my my boldness more in the bedroom of just kind of like instead of like before i'd be like, like, you don't think I want to try this, but I don't know she's gonna think it's weird. Like I'm just like, let's try this. Get grab a pillow laid out, like yeah, you know, it's just like yes, I think my confidence, my assertiveness and also just like the language that we use now is just we talk about it much more openly.

29:26 I love the fact that communication is the experience experience part of the section of experience love. Yeah, So for me again, it does come back to communication. But I think the difference I've noticed is, you know, certain things, like we've talked about this in the past, that we hold on to things that we find shameful and that we're just like, why do I like this? What the fuck is wrong with me? And I have I've said on many episodes that since I can remember my God give me a good spanking, I fucking love it. But I've always thought it was fucking weird because every time I would even mention it to someone, they're like, oh, did your dad do that to you? Like do you and I'm like, what the fuck's wrong with me? Like, something's wrong with me. So when my partner would, you know, do it and everything, I wasn't able to almost enjoy it as much as I wanted to because I was holding onto that. So I finally pretty recently, actually up till I want to say about like three weeks ago, very recent. We were just like in the midst of it or whatever, and I had to stop him and I was just like, listen, I need you to reassure me.

30:30 I need you to tell me this is sexy, because otherwise I'm never gonna relax. I'm never gonna feel like And immediately he was like, I didn't know that. I'm like, I know you didn't know that. How would you know that? And he did and I immediately, like I just felt my whole fucking body relax, Like everything just was just like yeah, and it And it really was because of this, you know, going on to Quinn or any other site and hearing, oh my god, there's spanking tags people people enjoy. It's okay, fucking game changer for me. Fucking game changer. I mean game changer to like discover that you like it, but fucking massive game changer to allow yourself to enjoy it by saying to him, please reassure me, Y ask you for exactly what you needed. I need you to reassure me that this is okay, so I don't get lost in my fucking head and you could be in the moment. Amazing.

31:19 Yeah, exactly, Wow, so good. Mm hmm a you smudgy, Well. I haven't. I'm gonna own it. Own it. I have not had sex since we started doing the podcast with anybody. I'm not in a relationship, I'm single, and I kind of there's been no changes for me in my own sexual experiences other than the fact feeling more comfortable not having sex. Yeah, and not feeling like there was anything wrong with me because I haven't had sex. Mm hmm. Yeah, I kind of feel that if that's a that's a change, because I would have felt, oh my god, I'm not having sex, what's wrong with me? I really want to have sex. I love sex, I love having an orgasm. I love everything about that. But I've not forced it whereas I would have done before and made potentially wrong choices because I wanted to feel that submissive connection with a dot. So yeah, so not having sex for eighteen months has led me to it to be a positive sexual experience for not having sex.

32:33 Yeah, so are you just like less in your head? Like? Are you less like that back and forth in your head about stuff? I can. I can love it and want it and beat it, but it has to be with the right person now rather than just because. Anyone right just to do it. There reminds me of I remember a while ago Amanda on social media Quinn creator talked about a period of time when she was celebrated and said it was like the sexiest time of her life because she wasn't getting lost in random partners. She was really spending that energy and intimacy on herself. Definitely, my alone time has become way more pleasurable.

33:16 Yeah, yeah, I love it. I love it cool. But before we get to the next question, ladies, let's hear from Peaches in his latest installment of Peaching It Real Well. Every time it gets freevel gets thieves, hearting thoughts mine being served up every time. Hello, my darlings, and thank you Cazah Jewels and Smudge. This one, as I say to all my lovers, is going to be short, sweaty and fairly loud, the reason being it is incredibly hot. I think it's around thirty five degrees in my little recording booth. And if I were to pull everything back my you know, my covers to make sure that my sound is all dampened, then I fear I may expire. So that's why it may be short, although I always say that and then it ends up going on and on and on. In this segment, I'm going to talk about something that may surprise people, the World Cup, and I was thinking about talking about the heat wave.

34:40 But I have. Expressed my feelings about the heat wave a few times already over the past week and the World Cup. It's never something that I really follow. It's something that I used to follow when I was a kid because I used to played football occasionally, used to play with my dad, used to watch the matches with him, but it was more like a bonding experience. And then once I got into my teens, I kind of stopped watching, stop supporting Arsenal, you know that kind of thing. They want to move to. Wales started watching a bit more rugby, watching the Six Nations all that. Never really been that into sport, you know, the watching of sport on TV. It's not really ever been my thing. And I remember last year seeing a lot of the boycotting of the World Cup, and when I saw that, you know it, it made me sad for the fans, because people want to be able to cheer on their team, to cheer on their country, and because it's in a place that is so unaccepting at the moment of people. It just made me sad to see.

36:01 Regardless of that, obviously, people are over in the US and I hope everyone over there who is celebrating and watching the matches is having a fantastic time. It looks as though the Scots infiltrated Boston and Boston Boston Knights absolutely loved them, which was so wonderful to see, and that's kind of that's what I wanted to talk about. So I was proud of people for the boycott, also sad for the fans, but seeing the camaraderie and people coming together and celebrating over in the US right now, it kind of it feels like it's been expelling all of this this negativity that the US seemed to have.

36:53 And I say that in terms of the government seem to have been creating these barriers between different nations, different countries, and it's so wonderful to see the public of other countries come together and almost kind of remind people that, you know, the whole world is a big community and there's nothing to say that we can forget some of those differences occasionally. And then it kind of made me appreciate sport. And I know I'm late to the game here, but it made me really appreciate sport, and football in particular is one that I always kind of swore off because you know that all the diving. I'm not sure if you can hear that bird, but they are right outside my window, all the diving, all of the theatrics.

37:46 It never was for me, and particularly in the UK, there was a lot of or there probably still is a lot of violence in football, and so it was a real surprise to see all the positivity come out of this, really really wonderful and in a way, you can look at it as though our passions can override our differences and then we can enjoy things together. Now I'm not saying that's going to work in every instance, especially how heavily politically driven a lot of communities are, and it's difficult to forget that when someone is affecting our lives in that way, as is happening all over.

38:40 But there are kind of glimpses of hope when it comes to things like this that perhaps in future there will be more just acceptance. I think it kind of reminds me of, you know, being back on the playground, or in particular, I use to be part of a tennis group and I didn't know who any of those kids were, and I was terrified going in, very socially anxious little boy. And once we'd started playing tennis, you know, we didn't have complex views at that point, and all that mattered was we were playing tennis. We were getting we were getting a you know, getting fit, we were being healthy, being active, having fun, learning a new skill, and that's all that mattered, you know. And all that matters to people over there at the moment celebrating their wins or you know, consoling their losses is football and having a passion for that and being patriotic, and that's what their focus is. And I think sometimes we can lose focus of that when there are so many things that we are fighting against. A couple of months ago, my feed on X was constant politics, politics, US UK politics,

40:14 just all over everything and it bogs us down. So we need to take breaks. We need to remember to let the things that we love that we're passionate about hold our focus as well. You know, those things that are important will still be there. And there are moments that are crucial and we do need to focus on them, but we also need to focus on the things that we love to do. So let's all go and read a book. Let's all, well, I'm about to go and jump in a cold shower, I think because I'm dripping all over my laptop. But do something today that makes you happy, and try to not focus on something that makes you unhappy, just for today. It will always be there tomorrow.

41:08 Right. This has been peaching it real And this is a very drippy Peaches back to you, Cazah, Jules and Sponge. Thanks Peaches, you are the best always of your perspective on stuff that good, so interesting and so cool. Yeah, he's got peaching it real and you know he's probably listening right now in his flat, sweating like you all are over there because you don't have acy. But he loves to sweat scene on his TikTok he's exactly mopping off his sweat with his T shirt. And if anyone want to slightly used T shirt, but please e bye peaches. Do you want us to do a giveaway slightly sweaty T. Shirt, I'm happy to come and pick it up.

41:50 Well money for charity charity. Anyways, Yeah, talking to sweating. Let's get back to the questions. So this looks like it's a question for me because it's off with smudge, smudge, How are you doing after everything you went through last year? Thank you very much for asking. Firstly, thank you. Yeah, I'm doing really well, Thank you very much. Made a few changes in my life, nothing at detriment, and it hasn't stopped me from being who I am. So I'm still me and I have taken that on board of what happened. And just in case anybody didn't know, I had a stalker harasser that was also stalking and harassing AJ. It was difficult and but no, generally, don't even think about it anymore. There's a couple of times where something will trigger it, but it won't be like a massive trigger. It will just be Oh, I remember that if somebody says the word or her name or something, it will just go, oh, there'll be a little little tingle in the back of my head and I'll like yeah, but generally fine, feel absolutely fine out the other end. And wasn't a positive experience obviously, but it definitely has has. I've probably come out of it stronger, to be honest.

43:15 Yeah, you know, I never really thought to ask you, and so I'm glad this person said this in but like to go from a place of hyper vigilance because you were constantly having to document, record, like all the things to build evidence against the stalker. So having to be hyper vigilant all the time, and then when it wrapped or you know, they just kind of went quite like what was that? How long did it take you to not be like your for your nervous system to relax? Probably a good good few months afterwards, I would think. So not having to you know, set my phone to screen record all night, oh you know, make sure I had a battery to go all nights, and then wake up in the morning and the first you do is look at your phone if you've slept, and see what has come in.

44:07 So she could get a bunch of messages that she would then delete, right. Yeah, So That's why I scream recording it, because she would send a lot of messages and voice notes and then send them and then delete them after a few minutes randomly. So yeah, I just started to scream record it because she was having conversations, like she was having a conversation with me and I was replying, and it wasn't that at all. So I initially did it as evidence that I wasn't responding to her and she was just having a conversation with herself and pretending that I was responding. So yeah, the hypervigilance bit talk the longest. I think actually Kaza definitely took the longest, just not constantly looking at my phone. The first time I ever left the house and I didn't have my phone on me, it was this big eurek, a moment of you know what, I don't need to have my phone on me anymore.

45:10 But you don't realize it when you're in it. You only realize it when you're out of it, of how much it affected you during it. So you're just in surroundal mode. I mean, you just defense mode constantly. Well, you ladies know exactly what it was I went through because you were there with me every minute of every day, you know, So I forgot. That bit that you said that she would leave messages as if you were having a conversation and it was always one sided, or she would leave messages, delete them and then accuse you of doing just that. Yeah, like you stop leaving me messages and deleting them. It's like, yes, between recording shows, that's not what's happened. Yeah, and just not just knowing that. You don't wake up and see that there's a video where she's calling you whatever on social media. Sometimes the private messages were like, but that's it's private that you know, it goes in the log, everything's done. But when she publicly was doing it, you know, nowhere near on the on the level that she did it to AJ. But it's like, oh my god, my name and my name is Smudge, not a lot of and it would come up at the bottom sometimes you know, Smudge video and then her name, yeah, and I was like, oh my god. And also for other people, for everybody who supported me throughout that and who sent

46:42 me the videos, I know they sat there and under an ard for a long time and it they struggled with that, and I know how much angst they felt about having to send me stuff just in case I didn't see it for the log for the police, for what we needed it for. So I know that there are people out there that supported me throughout that also struggled during that time because of how little control that they had and how much they wanted to support. And it would have been awful trying to, you know, sending me something on a link to a video that where she's calling me all the names under the certain type of thing. Right, Yeah, I think Jules and I think we each got a messages from people saying should I send this to Smudge?

47:23 Yes? Everything? Yes, you know, did you want to give her heads up first so she's not doesn't get a jump scire and yep. Yes. But to all those that supported me, fucking you are the best and I will never ever be able to repay you for all the support that you did and for anybody that's going through it, talk to somebody. Yes, Okay, who are your current celebrity crushes? Oh gosh, I have a good celebrity crush person, I know. I bet it's surprising to people that I don't actually have too many celebrity crushes. I really don't. But I am a huge Tom Holland fan. He's Spider Man if you guys know, because he did a lip sync battle, the best one ever done, by the way, the best one ever done. Second I saw him do that lip sync done, I was I was sold. I was like, you're the hottest man that's ever lived, Like you were Billy Elliott on stage. I knew you could dance, but like, for Fox's sake, So Tom Holland, I just have always had a huge crush on. But most who's my other crush? Oh, I have a crush on They're from House of the Dragon.

48:32 Their name is Emma Darcy, so it's a show based on Game of Thrones. Oh my god, I just find them so beautiful and like badass and I have such a crush on them that those are probably my two right now. But you got you got any spodge? Well? I think? Well Tom Ellis, Oh my god, I mean I would dehydrate him so badly. Hello, Hello Detective. Oh my god, Lucif if anybody doesn't know who that is, Tom Detective Yeah, or the UK comedy show Miranda. But I've always had my biggest crush throughout my entire life has been Keith for Sutherland, So he's got to get a mention because I've been in love with him since I was you know, twelve.

49:18 You've met him, right, I did meet him. Yes, and he got down on one knee and proposed to him. Yes, but yeah, he's he's just he was David in the Lost Boys. Yes, Last Boys. Yeah. So yeah, him and him and Tom Alis in a little tag team roast of Smudgie would be very much welcomed. Oh my god, that's so yummy. I was Ruby Rose, you know what. Yeah, if I have to go to the to if I was going to it would be it would be then Ruby Rose. Jennifer Lawrence, there's always another one. I just would be so fucking funny.

50:01 I just love how real she is. That's what makes her so hot too. I mean she's gorgeous, but yeah, her being like her just being like, yeah, I fall all over the place. I'm like, you're so relatable, it's so sexy. Yeah. I love Jennifer Lawrence. Trying to think of a male current celebrity crush, I don't know about current, but I'm trying to think, like, I mean, Rob Low, because. I think he's so hot he's still hot, he's. Still so gorgeous, like, and he's just yeah. A good one. That's good. Yeah. I would have said Robin Williams, but his past office he was he was a big crush of mine. Yeah, Ruby Rose definitely would.

50:45 So gorgeous and talented and like the only reason I like the movie The Meg is because Ruby Rose is in it. Just what a stunner. Stunner, Oh, Jason Statham, That's another one of mine. I don't he can make as many bad movies as he wants, and I will watch every fucking he attacked one one at a time by twenty people. And he will continue to mate back movies. Yes, he will smudge. Okay, that's the best I can do with himself. Well, the next question kind of leads straight on from that, is is it okay to have a little crush on your favorite va? Like where the rulemakers? Yeah, amaze in our opinion.

51:31 All Right, I'm gonna I guess I'm gonna answer this from a couple of different ways, because it's like, is it okay to have a little crush on your favorite va? I mean, of course, I say, like, yeah, I mean when I think about a little crush, Like that's so innocent. And I mean if you're enjoying them and their work and their audios and you know you're crushing on him. M yeah. As a mod I go as long as it stays a little crush, yeah, and doesn't go anyplace creepy or dangerous, like don't try to freaking find out where they live or like oh god, oh really. I think a little crush as long as it's not taking over your world, if it's not replacing real life. Yeah, I mean, crush away. I have crushes on like, I mean, we have so many great vas we do. Like you can crush on for different reasons, for their kindness, their generosity, their hardness, their sexiness, their audios. So yeah, fucking crush away. Yeah.

52:27 Well, the definition of crush because I was thinking, I remember having crushes when I was at school. You know, I've got a crush on this person, I've got a crush on that person. So it says a crush generally refers to an intense, often temporary, romantic infatuation with someone or the person who is the object of that affection. So it's a very temporary thing, which is why we go through many stages of our lives, crushing on different variations of people, right, I guess so, Yeah, I agree. I think you can have a crush apps fine off, crushed off, crushed crushed on PVAs. Because of saying that kind of there's an intensity, but like you said, there's a level. Yeah, that crush stays as a sweet, little innocent crush.

53:15 Yes, I think it is totally normal to have a crush on someone. First of all, it is, especially in audio erotica. It is a very intimate, vulnerable thing that you're listening to. I think it is a very natural thing. And I know people talk a lot about limerens and things like that, but I will say, like, if you get excited that somebody responded to any of your comments or something, who the fuck cares if you're not, if you're not reading that comment instead of going to work, who the fuck cares? Like? I think that is fine. I think little crushes are normal. Yeah, I mean, my god, think about what we listened to. First of all, Think of the dopamine and the chemicals going through our brains while we've been listening to it, you know, I mean that alone. So yeah, I think it's I think it's normal too, And as long as you don't let it overtake things, or you don't start thinking things are gonna happen that are never gonna happen, or start changing your life to match certain other things.

54:07 I think it's fine to have a little crush. Yeah, yeah, I agree, And I think I probably more have a crush on the character than I do on the person, to be honest. What then, what then you know who they're portraying they're performing, Yeah, exactly, you can see that. Yeah, yeah, yeah, crush away, crush. Away, crush crush crush me between your thighs? What what? Moving on? I had to come on? Hell yeah, crush me. I will be the watermelon. Damn those videos for fuck's sake.

54:47 As fans listeners of audio erotica, are you ever tempted to try it yourselves? Nope? Well we all faked orgasms, so we're all liars. Yes we have. Oh that's right, sorry, we've done it. Okay. I think this means in the grun scheme of it being your profession. I mean, I will say no, it's my answer. But back when I recorded the audiobook versions of my books and I was in like a studio because this was before like everyone was doing it out of their homes. I was in a studio with a sound engineer and all of the studio people. The engineer asked me if I did that for a living, and I said no, and he's and he was very kind. He said, usually when we get authors in here who are narrating their own books, he said, it's a clunky experience because they just they don't have that natural cadence kind of stuff.

55:42 He said, it just sounds like you've done this a lot, and I said it's probably from like when I hosted the radio show. I was comfortable kind of like talking in that way. But he said, you know, I would really suggest that you consider a career in this. Really, he said, whether you do it on the side or whatever. He said, but he said you were a real natural that comes to like narration. And I was like, okay. And I remember so many like that was twenty seventeen, twenty eighteen, and I remember finding that ACX platform that people now sign on to back then, because when I went back to revisit it last year or something, I'm like, oh, yeah, people are talking about this this platform. And I signed on when it was like, you already have an account and I had created account back in twenty eighteen god on ACX, and I'm like, oh my god, but I never uploaded like any auditions or anything like that. I'm like, isn't that funny? So audio rotica? No, I will not be a voice actor for that, but you never know where the future will take me as far as narrations and stuff, but who knows.

56:42 Wow, Yeah, I kind of never say never. But I just I think I don't have I don't have the voice. I don't have the capacity of like my mind just go in lots of different directions as we know, so I don't have that luxury of being able to concentrate for two hours and read. So it's a massive note for me. Els would be a massive amount of editing. To be fair. About you, Jules, I definitely do not have a voice for smut. Definitely not. But I am pretty animated and I have signed up for that ACX website and just to look into stuff for like video games or kid stories or things like that that I think my voice would be good. Again, I can be pretty animated, so I think something like that might be good for me.

57:38 But now I'm all set with the smut. I'll just listen to it. Yeah, we'll listen to it and we'll enjoy it exactly. Yeah, yeah, exactly. Cool. Good question. What have you learned about yourself after fifty episodes The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly? H good? Having edited a lot of these, I say a lot. I just did it in my fucking such a cun. I didn't even notice. When my brain pauses, it pauses, and then it fucking goes onto some sort of loop and I say the same thing two or three times on the trot, just adding an extra word or removing a word and the word.

58:27 I need to stop it. I need to find another fill of word. It's funny, is it a funny? Other brains growing to like, what's the things I do wrong? What are the best? Yeah? That's because my brain went to I say like all the time. And I'm one of those people that I always, you know, would quote share from clus and be like, you know, like like this or whatever and stuff, and I'm just like, ah, I'm like, I'm doing it. I'm actually doing it during episodes. Why am I saying like every other word? See? And it's so funny because like, as one of the editors, I would notice that you don't say it a lot, because otherwise I would be taking it out all the time. So you probably think you say it more than you do. Because when we first start our first few episodes, I had to edit out a lot of ums.

59:08 For you, and I remember you telling me that, yes. You like as soon as I told you that it was. I don't know how you fucking did it, but I'm like, oh my god, you just stopped it. I put I put a post it note on the quarter of my computer that said, don't say UM many of them. I don't do that anymore. I don't have to edit that out anymore. Yeah, I don't jinx it Jewels. I have learned that I'm more of a perfectionist than I realized, because I would have never considered myself a perfectionist, like I'm married to one. I'm married to the president of the Perfectionism Club, and I thought there's no way because I'm all about, like, just get it done the easiest way, the fastest way, whatever, until it comes to creating something like this. As you two have learned, the joke is always like, wait a minute.

1:00:01 No notes from it's the best feeling ever. It's like winning the lottery. It really is. I don't apologize. I apologize. It's just like some of the things like this is what I've learned about I kind of knew this from back in my magazine days, Like I feel design more than I see it. And so if you guys send a graphic and you're like, what do you think of this, and you're like, oh, it looks great, and I'm like, it feels like it's tilting to the left. It's like so it's like out of balance in my body, Like my inner compass is like something's missing. So that's I think it's helpful and stuff, but I also think it's pretty annoying. I think I've loosened up a little bit where I'm like, yeah, it's good, Like I've learned to embrace good enough a little bit more.

1:00:47 Hopefully you definitely have. Yeah, But I think when we first started out as well, we wanted everything to be absolutely I mean, it's not that we don't want things to be perfect. Now, I think we work really hard on the editing, on the on the production, on everything about this, on the primos, everything to be still authentically us but to a high standard, and we have a high standard for ourselves. Yeah, and I think. We've also realized that we don't have all that fucking time on our hands anymore. It's a lot. Yeah, we do have very high standards for ourselves, I will I will say, and I'm proud of that though, right because we have. You know, we've had many guests say to us like, wow, you guys like like this is a professional like outfit here, and it's like good, Like we hope that that comes across.

1:01:36 I do think, you know, one good thing is that we've I think we've all that I can speak for myself, have gotten better and fast. I've certainly gotten better and faster with editing. It's still a time consuming as fuck, tedious as fuck, but at least I feel like it goes a little bit more quickly now. Yeah, guys are amazing. Maybe I think we're all. We are all are good and bad and ugly, but we all do it at different times. So if we kind of compensate for each other when somebody's having a good day, because we cannot be at a good day when we're recording and a bad day when we're recording, and a fucking ugly day we're recording. Oh yeah, like me right now, sweaty mess. Oh.

1:02:17 But I think the thing about how this works is that we don't put ourselves down for the good, that bad and the ugly. Yeah, yeah, exactly, And Kaza just to go back to what you said about, you know, like wanting things just so. But it is also kind of using the word force is going to sound negative, but I mean in a positive way. It's kind of forced me. Who I'm not detail oriented. I see the big picture and I miss all the little shit that you know, people notice, And it's kind of helped me. When I'm creating something on Canva, which I didn't even know how to use until we started this, I'll notice myself be like okay, like ww like Kip like what what would Kaza do? I kind of and I kind of try to look though at that different lens, like our things symmetrical? Should did I know?

1:03:00 Did I make something of caps when it shouldn't? Things like you know what I mean, things I wouldn't have thought about before, and then it ends up making things more efficient. Yeah it does. Yeah, it is cool how we've all just kind of like I mean, we do all have like different skill sets because I've learned from the two of you of just like like how to be more playful in design and in like or just in like like, because I come from such a like I've had my own business for twenty five years. Yes, it's like it's I'm such a business mindset, and so that can be a little bit too rigid, and so to like lighten up and loosen up a little bit and be playful and have some fun. That's why I love jewels that you've kind of like taken the social media stuff and run with it because you're so good and playful and smudge your designs and your promos. It's like good, mine would look so corporate, and it's that's not the vibe.

1:03:47 So we pick up we strength, We lift each other up where we stumble a little bit. We do comparent to each other all the time. Well, I think it's me fill in blank, now, next later, and in brackets interprets however you would like. What Okay, hang on, I gotta wrap my brain around. This song now, next later? Is that where we see us or the podcast or both or whatever however you interpret it, It says, oh yeah, you're right, I did say that out loud. I mean, I feel like my brain is gonna go to the podcast just because we're recording one right now.

1:04:29 So now I'm super proud of where we've come to, the milestones that we've hit. A next for me again, I'm just thinking like technical and podcast stuff of like a different recording platform which I have some to test, uh, and also like bringing in more sponsors and advertisers, and like really working on making this my full time job because I love it so much that so next would be really focusing on the business end of things for me later. This is like a top podcast that people listen to for women empowerment, for like fun and it's just yeah, the reach is really broad and wide, and we get our inboxes flooded even like we get some now, yes, but it's flooded with stories from women whose lives have been changed as a result of our conversations.

1:05:41 Yes, agreed, what about you, Joel's. I don't know why this is where my brain went, but it just is mine went to. Now is just temporary. Next is just around the corner and later you can worry about tomorrow. I don't know why, that's just what popped into my head. I love it, though, new tattoo. There we go. I'll write it over our matching one. No, never doing that, I would write it. That's just where my brain went. I love it. Like I said, it's interpret however you would like. I went, now, I watch just spog for some reason, I just something at nineteen pm. Yeah, so I went to Now I am finally doing some creative things that I would like to do. Next is I want to work towards that being the majority of my earning potential. And later I would like to be retired, living in a forest doing nothing but write and do podcasts about women empowerment as women get older, and their sexuality and everything about how beautiful it is to be a woman. That would be my later.

1:07:04 I love it. Guy, that's so fun. They're so different. I love it. I know who's in my next Jules, all. Right, what would you each tell your podcast episode oneself, episode twenty five self in your future one hundred self? Okay, my oneself, I would say, don't worry, Smudge, You're not going to make an absolute cunt of yourself. My twenty five self was shit. We've done twenty five episodes and people still want to listen, and more people are listening. This is fucking brilliant. And my future one hundred self is look how much money we've made doing this podcast, and I can retire and just do creative stuff for the rest of my days.

1:07:58 All right, smud, I thought you were gont to say my episode oneself, don't worry, You're not gonna be an episode twenty five. Oops, yes you are. I thought too. That was all in my head to say. And I was like, you can't say that so much because that's predictable, and that's just proved my fucking point, isn't it exactly? It's totally right. I thought you're gonna go what about you, Jules? All right? I would tell my episode oneself that bitch, you can do this. I would tell my episode twenty five self, Hey, you know what, you actually are funny and you actually have something to say, so fucking talk and I did nice yes, And then my future one hundred episode self, Oh god, would be so Naudio. How do you feel being on the podcast on our episode lucky aren't you?

1:08:52 Oh my god? That's so good, so good. I love that, right. I picked Jule's answer that so good. Oh god, I don't even know now, Like episode oneself, it's gonna be fine. Just take a breath. Episode twenty five self, Holy fuck, I can't believe I'm actually doing this. Go me future one hundred self, I can't believe I ever doubted it. I love that Jesus right. If we just delete mine and just play.

1:09:36 You will. Here's amazing. But oh my, here's this amazing. Think of a VA or a scriptwriter or an editor that has impacted you or the community in some way, what would you like them to know? I feel like, almost like the mess, what I would like them to know would be the same regardless of whether they're a VA script editor, because all of those pieces of the puzzle are so important in the art that's put out and the work you do, whether you're voicing a script, writing the script, or editing the script, is incredibly important and impactful, life changing. As I hope you know and if you don't hear it now that the time you spend on your craft really matters. Yeah, and you're making a huge impact, So don't doubt it for a second.

1:10:36 Yeah, I kind of agree, because I know lots of vas and script writers and a few editors now, and I think I would. It's like your favorite child, isn't it. I do, But I just think the impact is exactly the same as what you said. There's no pick in my favorite nobody. Everybody, every woman who stepped up, specifically women, every woman who stepped up into this business and he's trying to make a trying to make a success, is making success or has made a success of their lives because of it. Fucking fair play, Toya. Absolutely every impact that you've made has been felt by me.

1:11:20 Damn beautifully said. Yeah, all right, well, I feel bad. I do have a specific person in mind, but so I actually do want to shout out k Chase, who is a scriptwriter and she is my favorite writer on quinn uh. And it is because of her that I ended up feeling confident enough to say yes to my very first editing job of a book because she asked me to edit I'm Sorry to Be to read a series called Use Your Words that was by AJ parts two, three, four, and five, and it gave me the confidence that I didn't always just have to be super nice to people when I was giving them feedback. If I mean, most of the time I had to because she an amazing writer.

1:12:00 But if I had any sort of constructive feedback, I never liked giving constructive feedback. I always felt so bad, felt like a terrible person, a terrible friend. But her asking me to do that really helped me with that. And I think she's helped the community a lot, because I still remember when we first had her on and we were reading her bio and she said that slightly toxic mdom is her like flavor of choice. And I remember, again we talked about this all the time, being like, oh my god, so that doesn't mean I want to cheat on my husband that I like, you know, a series about somebody sleeping with someone's wife, you know. So I like that she came into the space and made it like it's okay to have this type of fantasy and listen to it and enjoy it.

1:12:41 Yeah. So I want to give a little shout out to k Chase. That's great. I love kay Chase. What what's awesome of your What are some of your biggest hair me out attractions? I don't know. I don't know what that means. I will explain to you, Okay, all right, which means we're going to do a video at some point of us doing a hear me out cake. You guys don't even know what that is yet, Okay, so hear me out. It's all over TikTok and everything. So it's someone that people don't find conventionally attractive. It can be animated, character, real, fictional, and it's who you are attracted to. So it's your hear me out, So I'll give you mine, fucking Jack Black. Jack Black can get it any day of the week, I think he I don't him Watching him pretend to be a teenage girl in a movie in the jungle, uh the oh my god, what's it called? Welcome to the Jungle was the best acting performance I've ever seen, and it made him so attractive to me that I was just like Jack Black, like fanning myself so he would be like he would be like my hair me out Because you don't typically hear who's your celebrity crush Jack Black?

1:13:47 So someone who's not traditionally attractive. Yeah, or like anime attracted to? Yeah, who you would? Yeah? So's it's literally just about preference. So some people say, like grew from the Minions movies, you know, like like you know what I mean, Like yeah, okay, I get it. Now. There's a guy called Darren Brown who's a mentalist, so he does a lot of NLP and your linguistic programming. Okay. And I was actually hypnotized by him live on TV. Not live on TV, but on TV. I just find something about his voice and his eyes and everything is yeah, horizing has worn guyline, but he's very much not what I would class as my type. Oh and then also I kind of had a little bit of a crush on Steve Colbert. He's fucking funny, and I do funny.

1:14:47 I don't do do funny guys. If I have the choice, I do funny guys. But yeah, Steve Colbert, I've watched his programs, like his late night thing we get in the UK here, And yeah, I I'm not religious and he's religious, and he's in the much older than I would normally go for capacity. But something about how he's quick witted, he's funny, he's kind, he's gentle, he's just Yeah. I love Steve Cobbert. Jewels. You're up all right? What are some of your vises? What do you struggle within? I struggle with sarcasm. It's it's just my language my love language, but like I struggle not doing it so often.

1:15:35 I have lots of friends who are on the spectrum, are autistic or you know, bipolar, et cetera, and they really struggle with my level and intensity and regularity of sarcasm. I can't stop being sarcastic. I'm just just can't. So you are, Yeah, that's one of my primary languages too, same, So that's why we're like, yeah, whatever, it's much just. Like yeah, I mean I struggle with substances. I struggle with alcohol. I guess that's advice. I struggle with stuff like that, you know, things like that. So I definitely struggle with hyperfixation type things that I have to kind of be really aware of. So those are probably my main vices, uh, is that I just have to be aware of those and reach out to people if I need help.

1:16:28 Those are probably nice, right, exactly, my vices I going vices in that direction. It's freaking sugar and carbs for me, Like give me cupcakes and ice cream all day. But it's a vice, I mean, which can be good, right, but it's advice because it's what I reach for to like not feel emotions and all the stuff. That you reach that stuff. For I struggle with focus that my brain's in a million places all the time. And you know what I strugg with. One of the biggest things I struggle with is living in the one side place, Like once I make a million dollars, once I lose a lot of weight, one s I move to Europe, one I then I'll be happy. So I'm constantly like living in the future when I know peace and power is in the present. So I struggle with like getting myself back to the moment because this is where, this is where it all happens. But I get that dopamine hit of like, well one side some like that some day that we all live in someday when and all that does is like stop you from working to get to that some day because you get that temporary hit where it's.

1:17:39 Like temporary dopamine yea hits. Yeah, that's a really really good one, you guys. I was so honest and vulnerable. For the last question we've got is if you hadn't ended up in the AE space, what do you think you would be doing? I time? Would you say? In prison time? In prison time? So I'm taking this like when I hear how it's worded, it's like, you know, if you've weren't doing this for a living, what would you be doing? Which were obviously not But like if if I so now, I'm gonna take it as if I hadn't found the AE space, what would I be doing? I'd probably be thriving in my business of like okay, helly, like i'd be u very successful professionally because I spent all my time on snow.

1:18:40 I don't know. I think in a lot of areas of my life I would still be kind of sleep walking through it of just kind of like going through the motions. Like finding this space really woke me up in a way that I wasn't expecting, and I certainly found friendships I could have never imagined greed, So yeah, I think, I mean I'd be worse off for it, for sure. I think for me, I was a high school teacher before this and loved it, but I was kind of reaching like that point in your life where like is this really what I want to keep doing? So I think if I hadn't found this space, and again I ended up getting terminated from my job, but I think I would still be teaching, And I think I would just be kind of, like you said, Kaza, going through the motions with it and just kind of going, like you said, going through life just like That's I don't want to say all there is because teaching is wonderful and can be very fulfilling, but it wasn't for me.

1:19:37 It wasn't fulfilling for me. Yeah, So I think I would probably be still be doing that, and again, I wouldn't have the friendships I have now. We talked about vices earlier. I don't think I would be doing as well as I am with some of those if I had still been teaching and in that kind of high that environment could be really, really tough. Yeah, because I taught special ed. So I think I think that I think that's what we're going on. So this space has helped me realize that I can go back to teaching if I want, But if I don't want to, there's so many other things I can do and I'm not just tied to being the teacher. Yeah. Well, I think I would have just had way more time to wang.

1:20:21 Because you have to remind yourself now with your catchphrase. Right, Honestly, I don't know. I thought my life was full genuinely, before the AE space, the model, the podcasting, the creative stuff. I thought my life was full before this, and now I don't even know what I did to fill the gaps, to fill the time. It's you probably did a lot of guys. I had way more time for scenes and escapism, but I generally, I think I don't get me wrong, my life has been a fucking movie, without question, But the downtimes, I think we're a lot more than what I remember them being, because there's no way that I could have had such a fulfilling, full life and then do this on top of that.

1:21:20 Yeah. Right, So what I picture of what my life was before was fun, and I've had great experiences and memories, and I've traveled and I've met me but you know, blah blah blah. But there must have been so much downtime because to be able to do this, what we all do just for the podcast is intense. Right, So without the A space, I've got the AA space, You've got your list thing, you've got your friendship communities, new ones, you've got your the modeling, we've got the podcast. There's I don't even know. I don't know who what I did I must have slept for twelve hours ago. If you don't know, Wow, But don't you think, don't you guys think that the time that you you had on your hands before wasn't really It's either it wasn't filled or it wasn't fulfilling enough for you to even remember what you did.

1:22:08 Oh yeah, I just did teaching stuff from seven am to nine pm. When I come home and just do work, work, work, work work. I never thought about anything else except teaching the Great Gatsby or literally anything else. Never. Yeah, I do, I mean, I I mean, you know, listen, and I had a pretty active life and but I yeah, I was. I was working a lot. I was working a lot as a business owner. So like for me, it's different smuch like I can I can see what has what the eight my time in the eighty space has replaced, not always for the good, but some for the good. H So no, I can remember, I can remember what I spent my time on. I just don't spend as much time on it anymore. Do you think that's because it's been superseded by something that you're more passionate about, or do you think absolutely just in a whirlwind.

1:22:54 Still, No, I think. I think it's because I've found something that is creative in a way that's different that I'm that I'm more passionate about. And it's like, this is so not I mean like having my own business. I've been a solopreneur, meaning like I I operate and create in a vacuum, and so having collaboration like this with the podcast is so fulfilling. I didn't realize how much I thrive in collaboration, and so I think I grew tired of the solopreneur life. I mean I did some collaborations throughout that, but not enough to sustain me. So this feels like different creative minds coming together to create something that's so fun and cool and then subsequently so impactful. It's Yeah, I think it's just I think I lost interest in the way I used to work, Yeah, and am just now given the opportunity to reinvent.

1:23:51 So oh I love that reinvent. Yeah, I feel I feel like that kind of made me think of again. I know it comes with what job you have sometimes, but I feel like I wasn't able to be as open and creative as I wanted to with things because I'm a high school teacher. I can't they're going to find my social media easier, Like, I mean, hey, I should have had my Instagram profile private, probably while I'm still teaching, but I didn't, Like, I have so much fun now just making fun silly videos and things like that. You know that until I really got into the space, I never knew I wanted to do anything. I don't even have TikTok like until really started, you know, And so I that was something else. I felt like I never really used anything creative unless again, it related to my job. Yeah.

1:24:33 Yeah, the space has provided so much to us. A Definitely, I think, if I'm being honest, I think I was lonely. I think I was very lonely, but didn't didn't spot it, didn't identify it. Mm hmm. And yeah, I've got lifelong connections now yea. And I'm less of a I know it's going to sound weird to everybody listening and anybody that knows me by less of an introvert now because I did a lot of things on my own. Mm hmmm. I traveled on my own, I went to concerts on my own, I went to theater on my own. I walk on my own. I've experienced so many things on my own. That's what I mean by lonely. Not that I didn't do things, but I have to do them on my own. And now I don't have to do things on my own as much anymore.

1:25:22 No, now we've got the commune, we're planning on building that we're all going to live together in our old age. When we make so much money on the podcast, with all the advertising and all the sponsors that we're going to get over the. Next year, we're going to buy a piece of land and just build a bunch of little homes. And it's just going to say, keep wanking as you go in right there, right up front. To keep wanking, Counmune, come on the doors down taking orders. Now it's Dragon's then still going because I think we can pitch it. Still shark tank you. Sorry, shark Tank strip dragons, and still going because I think we can picture this some idea and.

1:26:02 It will Hell yeah, hell yes. That's the end of the questions, ladies. Wow, thanks cliticians for sending so many in so much for. This July episode in the Bag. In in the Bag. Also, thank you so much to Peaches for your amazing peach in it real segment. As all ones so good. Yes, so that is it? Another one in the bag and on woods and utpwoods ladies. So thanks for listening, cliticians, you know the drill comment like share all the things. We really appreciate your time and your questions. As Smudge mentioned earlier, we will post these questions on social media because we want to hear some of your answers too. Uh So, Yeah, we'll be back with you again for another fantastic episode. But for now, this has been Caza, your voice matters, This.

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